I Like Heavy Bass Lines

I Like Heavy Bass Lines

 This song is about how I'm fond of heavy bass lines. I think my music would suck without 'em.

He's My Fucked Up Universe

He's My Fucked Up Universe

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album. This is the song where you find out how truly fucked up this relationship is. Trigger warning: this song might be triggering for people who've had sexual trauma in their lives. Shit, man.

 The lyrics are:

He's my universe

The second night, the second night - wow

The first night, we got engaged
The second night, I felt his rage

He's my universe tonight

The first night, we got engaged
The second night's a different page
Of the book that is my life
The second night was filled with strife

He's my universe tonight

The second night, the second night - wow

We tried to have sex, but we found that his dick couldn't get off the ground
His equipment did not work, and he turned into a big jerk
And he blamed me for the whole thing
And said some words that made me sting
He said there'll be no silver ring, unless I promise to suck his thing
He threatened to break up with me if I did not give him head
But he's so wonderful, how could this be? And I wanted to be dead
I thought he was compassionate, but he's scaring me so bad
And his actions are of a fashion that makes me so very sad

He's my universe, he's my universe
He's my universe tonight

He always comes first, and he is my special king

He's my universe tonight

There's Ashes In My Village

Ashes in My Village

This is another one o' those songs that came to me in a dream - actually, both the A and B phrases did, and I put 'em together to make a nice little ditty about hopeless despair. 

The lyrics are:

There's ashes in my village, my village, my village
There's ashes in my village

I want to be there

My village is burning down to the ground, and I
Want to be there; I want to save the town, but I'm
Also aware that if I am around, we still
Don't have a prayer, and that makes me feel down
Sadness is looming around, and I found
Gladness will never in habit this town
Burnt down, broken and confused, how'd we lose
Everything? This is not the live that we'd choose

There's ashes in my village, my village, my village
There's ashes in my village

I want to be there

He's My Universe

He's My Universe

 This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album. The boyfriend guy has grown in importance to the point of being the whole universe in the eyes of the main character. The whole universe!!!!

The lyrics are:

He's my universe and I can say
I wish I could see him every single day

He's my universe, he's my universe, he's my universe today
And when when we're apart it does break my heart
He's my universe today

It was nice to see him the other day
And I wish that he had not gone away

He's my universe, he's my universe, he's my universe today

He is my universe, and he is everything
He always comes first, and he is my special king
He's the king of everything, and I cannot deny this thing
And soon I'll have a diamond ring; I swoon, and my heart starts to sing

He is so great
And I can hardly wait to see him again

He's my universe, he's my universe, he's my universe today

I Used To Make Fancy Sounds On My Guitar

I Used To Play Fancy Stuff On My Guitar

 This is a song about how, when I listen to really old recordings, like, from when I was in college and stuff, I realize, I used to do a lot more fancy stuff on my guitar then than I do now.

Engaged !

Engaged!

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album. Yessiree, the main character finds out that, yes, indeed, her boyfriend had actually been proposing to her! When she said, "Sure," he assumed that she wanted to get engaged. Oh, no!

The fucked up thing is - this is a true story! This happened to me 24 years ago. Crikey. Yeah, I figured, well, okay. I'm not ready to get engaged, but he's all excited: If I say, "No, wait, I didn't mean it," then he'll be all butt-hurt. So, I kept my not bein' ready to be engaged a secret. Dang, man, dang.

The lyrics are:

He said, "We're engaged!"
Oh, fuck
Oh, fuck

This is way too early a stage
In this relationship to get engaged
And I did not know he was proposing
To me and I feel hosed
If I say, "Wait, this is a mistake,"
He'll take it the wrong way
He'll be butt-hurt and distressed
Yes, if I say that, I confess,
That this is not what I wanted
I don't even know if he's fun in bed
So, I'll make the best of it
But in my mind, I say, "Oh, shit"

He said, "We're engaged!"
Oh, fuck
Oh, fuck

So, I guess I'll go with it
But in my mind, I say, "Oh, shit"
And he's too cheap to have a ring
To put upon my stupid finger
But, he promised silver
We'll see if he delivers
Some silver for the bride and groom
And I hope that I'm not doomed

Let the Comfort Hold Me Back

Let The Comfort Hold Me Back

The hook for this song came from a dream, and I did that thing where I try to weave dream-stuff into a coherent narrative. Here it is!

The lyrics are:

A million years is an awful long time
That I had fears that I drownded with wine
In a million years, I will be in the same chair
Looking through my tears, and with a break stare

Let the comfort hold me back

I'm in a comfort zone of not moving on all the things that I should be doing
And I feel stupid - am I a poop head? Or just not suited to that thing you said
About getting out and doing more - oh, wow - maybe that will make me sore
I would much rather sit here and drink beer, cuz it is funner than facing my fears

Let the comfort hold me back

A million years
And I cannot complain
Cuz I have beers that sing to me like rain

Let the comfort hold me back

I'm a Loser

 

I'm a Loser

Here's a song about being a loser. I might be one, but y'know, I guess that's okay. I mean, given that this world has winners in it, I guess there have to be losers. Us losers are giving winners the ability to exist.

The Girl With The Silver Rings - Cliffhanger #2

The Girl With The Silver Rings Cliffhanger 2

Here's the next song in the fucked up relationship album. Y'know how last week, the narrator was sayin' she was in shock and is getting ready to tell the audience something? Here's where she starts to say it. Y'know how lotsa couples say stuff like, "Someday when we're married, we should get purple silverware?" As in, someday, in the distant future, we'll get married and do stuff. But not right now. Well, in this song, the boyfriend sez, "will you marry me?" and the gal says "sure," thinking it's one of those casual exchanges. But then he gets all excited looking. What's gonna happen next? Stay tuned next week!

The lyrics are:

He showed up at my house for the first time
And everything seemed to be just fine

He said, "Will you marry me?"
And I said, "Sure!"

That is how couples always talk like
They say, "Let's get married and have tykes"
I figured that's just a way to say,
"I love you dear," and "Have a nice day"

But he got an excited expression
Shit, was I under the wrong impression?
I figured it was just a casual
Way to say our feelings are mutual

He said, "Will you marry me?"
And I said, "Sure"

Alienation

Alienation

I woke up from a dream about alienation, which has been the theme of my life this week, so I wrote a song about it. Alienation sucks.

Just a side-note; I've been considering doing a concept album of a strange sort. Y'know how Linkin Park has done albums in a number of different genres? And, like, how the most recent one was pop music? I've been wondering to myself: What would it sound like if Linkin Park did a country album? What would it sound like???????? Listening to this song a few nights ago, I wondered if it sounded like that very idea - the conglomeration of Linkin Park and country music. I mean, yeah, it sounds like that to me, but other people might think I'm deluded. Ha ha ha.

The lyrics are:
It was a shock
My alarm clock

Woke me up from that dream
That had a dumb stupidity theme
Am I crazy for being here
Inside this dumb life that gives tears?

I had dreams that I was a poop-head
I had dreams about being dumb
I had dreams about being stupid
And at work, I was all thumbs

This situation of alienation
Might cause vast migrations from the human nation
Why'd we want to stay if we're weird at all?
We said no way

My dreams told me
That I'm not free

Every situation is running to The Great Migration
Into the blue, I lost my station
Of being human in this nation
I had dreams about being stupid

I had dreams about being dumb
I had dreams that I was a poop-head
And at work, I was all thumbs
So many of us are in lives where we cannot stand it
And I wonder if we have landed on the wrong planet
And fitting in is getting harder every day
It's shitty to be here - can we just go away?

I had dreams about being stupid
I had dreams about being dumb
I had dreams that I was a poop-head
And at work, I was all thumbs

La la la, Meow, meow meow

Will you come with me into my dreams?
And I'll show you what I mean
But we might stuck inside them

That would really suck