Pray the Trees Into Heaven

 

Pray the Trees into Heaven Version 1

Pray the Trees into Heaven Version 2

Well, I was stupid and naive, thinking a concerned group of citizens could stop evil from happening. I as stupid to think the politicians in charge of approving the most evil housing development in the world (the Dana Reserve, in Nipomo, CA, which promises to kill 3 to 4K centuries old oak trees). I feel like I'm going to puke my guts out. Of COURSE this fucking got approved? Why????? Because America is not a democracy; it's an oligarchy. All the politicians give a shit about is making rich people happy; it doesn't matter than an ancient forest is going to get mercilessly slaughtered. That ENDANGERED SPECIES are going to get paved over. That the air in the town will now be unbreathable. Nope, the only thing that happens is that rich people (a.k.a. evil housing developers) are happy. 

Anyway, all I can do is try to pray the trees and other beings that'll die into Heaven. So here I am doin' that. There're 2 versions of this song; the first is more peppy and the second is all sad and head-voicy. 

 

Weird, Old-Guy Boyfriend

Weird Old Guy Boyfriend

Weird Old Guy Boyfriend - Mix 2

 This is the the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The mean boyfriend comes for a visit and the main character is not excited. Y'know, she's not excited, cuz she's made the realization that she's gotta eventually break up with him. In the meantime, a friend o' hers invites her and the mean boyfriend to a Super Bowl party. The whole time she's there, she's all self-conscious and wondering what all the people there think of her weird, old-guy boyfriend. True story!

 

420 Song for 4/20/2024

 

420 Song 2024

 This is my song in honor of it being 4/20/2024, that fun old weed-smoking holiday. It's a sequel of the song I did last weekend (that just went live a few minutes ago here) about smokin' weed in a church and bein' discovered by the priest there (Father O'Malley). In this song, the narrator and Father O'Malley smoke together.

Banjo Church Stoned Song

Banjo church stoned song

 This a song about a girl who takes her banjo to church, and then she proceeds to get stoned in said church. Is Father O'Malley going to see her smoking??????? Oh, my!!!

TiredBoredScared

TiredBoredScared

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's more stuff about the girl procrastinating on the whole breakup thing. Or, maybe, rather than procrastinating, she's building up her strength, so she can be all ready for the breakup when it happens. Maybe it's that.

She's tired of him. She's bored by him. And she's scared o' him. Here's a picture of her having a boring phone call with him.

Tinnitus

Tinnitus

 This is a song about tinnitus. The first couple seconds are me trying to replicate my actual tinnitus with pure tones. I actually did quite a good job, but find that it might be piercing to the listeners' ears, so I only had it there for that short span of time.

Tinnitus is a pain in the butt, but every once in a while, I find it entertaining. My tinnitus has multiple tones, and every once in a while they interact with each other to make this cool poly-rhythm type of thing.

Anyway, this is a song about a person, who likes her tinnitus, cuz she never feels alone. The ringing of her ears, musical in its nature, keeps her company.

Oh yeah, part of it is a reprise of a song that I've done a lot of reprises of. It's a song that came to me in 2019 after a big earthquake. It's a song that my ancestors, who were in the 1906 earthquake, sent me. Well, that's just a guess.

Stay That Way

 

Stay That Way

Stay That Way Mix 2

Stay That Way Mix 3

Stay That Way Mix 4

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. There was a song I wrote back in 2001 that called "She'll Stay That Way for a While" and I sorta re-worked it. Well, I re-worked it a lot. It's hardly recognizable as bein' the song it was before. But, anyway, there was all that depresso-land-adventure-poopy-yucky-ness of the impending break up that made me feel inspired to do depresso music back then in 2001. This depresso song speaks to that original poopy-depresso-land-adventure-poopy-yucky-ness, but in a new, exciting way. Yeah

Mix 1 is the version that's monotonous droning on and on of the same thing, which fits the theme of the song, in an artistic sense. Mix 2 is where I interesting-ed it up, because I don't want to make people's ears fall asleep.

Purple Blue Mercury Stillness

Purple Blue Mercury Stillness

Purple Blue Mercury Stillness - Revised

 Yeah, I decided to try makin' that funny Grey's Anatomy song from a few days ago into the kind of song that I was singing about in the Grey's Anatomy funny song. It's about death; y'know, it's about worrying about where friends and stuff end up after they die.

Post-script: there was a little section of lyrics I wasn't all the way happy with, so I changed it; the revised version is the one with the newly-worked-out lyrics. Poopity poop.

Zoloft

 

Zoloft Part 1

Zoloft part 1 is just a wee little rough draft; the full version of it is below. I mean, it starts out the same, but then I change it part way through. Zoloft (without the "part 1") is the more finished product, sorta.

Zoloft

Zoloft Mix 2

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's about how the girl, knowing she has to eventually break up with her boyfriend, gets all depressed. She decides to go back on Zoloft.

Someone Is Going To Die On Grey's Anatomy

Greys Anatomy

 This song is about how, whenever someone is about to die on Grey's Anatomy, there's almost always this sad, beautiful, poignant music that comes up. It's like, oh, I think this patient on the operating table is going to live! Then the sad, beautiful, poignant music comes up, and it's like, oops, they bled out. That's how I know somebody is going to die on Grey's Anatomy. That music comes on. Well, it's a different song each time. But they're all of the same category. This here little ditty is rough. My covid voice is gettin' the best of me these days.

Driving Through The Rain With Kitties

Driving Through the Rain With Kitties

 It's time for the yearly song with cats yelling in it cuz they were due for their little vet checkups. Here they are, yelling. A big rainstorm was starting, as I hit the road, complete with lotsa wind and everything. So, I figured, I'd make this little ditty about being all apprehensive about driving in the rain and wanting to make it home safely with the most precious cargo anyone could imagine. One's cats.

Dark Blue Winter, Part 2

 

Dark Blue Winter Part 2

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's sort of a sequel to the song I did a few weeks ago about it bein' the Dark Blue Winter. The gal in the album has become fairly certain that she's going to have to break up with her boyfriend, and it's making her all depressed.

Wrong Side of the Road

Wrong Side of the Road

 This song popped outta me on February 14th, but I only recorded the first part of it. Today, I recorded the second part of it. It's a song about, well, I guess, in general, it's a song about losing one's marbles. But the metaphor I use is that of me being a bus driver who finds herself driving on the wrong side o' the road. Ooooops!!!!!!! There're days I feel like the character in this song. Yes, indeed, I have days like that in recent times.

Wino

Wino

Wino Mix 2

Wino Mix 3

Wino Mix 4

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's about the girl bein' bummed out about her relationship goin' bad and turnin' to wine to make herself feel better. I gotta listen to it a few more times, I think, before I decide how I feel about it. Poopity poop.

 

I Don't Feel Nothing

I Don't Feel Nothing

 This is a song about that variety of depression where, rather than being down-in-the-dumps, per se, one feels all blank and empty and stuff. I dunno which sucks more, to be honest...bein' all down in the dumps and crying-ish, or being a blank blankness of void-y-ness. This is the kind of depression where you find yourself falling into a void, and you realize you're becoming the void you're falling into.

Bug Symphony

 Here's a song that's just a buzzing insect whose frequency varies. Well, it's me pretending to be a buzzing insect.

Bug Symphony

 

Let's Join Together

Let's Join Together

 This is Song #10 in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer series. The people in the tiny church go outside to see what the source of the light is that's comin' in through the windows.. They see Loosey Goosey Lucifer, and she sees them, too. They all figure out they have the same deal...in other words, they all want to save the world. Because they all have the same deal, they decide to join together. They all decide to save the world together.

The Dark Blue Winter

 

Dark Blue Winter

 This is the first song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's actually based on an old ditty that I wrote back when I initially realized I was most likely going to break up with the boyfriend the Fucked Up Relationship Album is about. I made a different chorus and I turned the original chorus into a bridge. I dunno if this is the definitive version of this song or not. I guess time'll tell. In any event, the prospect o' having to break up with horrible-boyfriend-man triggered a major depressive episode. But not as bad as the one I had during the summer that takes place in Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 2. 

Actually, scroll down for a better version of this song (it's a week later, and I souped it up in a good way.)

Dark Blue Winter 2nd Mix

Then I went back and changed the beginning and ending of this song, cuz I didn't like the original ones. Here's the newer version, yeah.

Here's the one with the crappy beginning and end:

Here's the one with the beginning and end that I prefer, yeah, man.

Mountains in Your Eyes, Part 2

Yesterday's sucky version:

Mountains Part 2

 This is the next song in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer series. The people in the tiny church are singing, singing away, singing jolly hymns. Suddenly, they hear the buzzing of the fly outside - the fly is singing along with them!

New and improved version:

Mountains Part 2 Mix 2

Post script:

Upon further listening to yesterday's song, I found that it had serious deficiencies that needed to be addressed. The ending didn't sound nearly churchy enough. I increased the churchy flavoredness, by adding a bit o' Casio-from-the-80s-keyboard-fake-organ-magic, along with some extra vocals to give it that good, Churchly choirish, group-of-bad-singers flavor on the ending. It made it more climactic and less sucky.

New, improved version:

Sucky, original version: 

I Must Be All Alone

I Must Be All Alone

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. It's the song where the girl decides that she needs to break up with her boyfriend.

Mountains in Your Eyes, Part 1

Mountains 1

 This is Song #7 of the Loosey Goosey Lucifer series. She follows the beam of light down to earth, and as she approaches the source of the light, she hears singing. She sees that the light and singing are both emanating from a tiny church, that very church that is in Song #3 of this series.

Corner of My Eye

Corner of My Eye

I realized last night that I needed a song to go between last night's song and last week's song, cuz 1. those 2 songs are kinda similar, so it sounds dumb to hear 2 similar songs in a row and 2. I wanted to make sure the listening audience knew exactly and precisely what was going on in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer album at this point, so I added it for a bit of clarification and stuff. So, like, in last week's song, Loosey Goosey Lucifer sends light down to Earth and it bounces off cuz the darkness of Earth was too dense for the light to penetrate. In this here song, she sees something outta the corner of her eye and goes, "What?" And in the next song (last night's song), she decides to go investigate it; it's a giant source of light that's a-coming from Earth.

Beam of Light (Loosey Goosey Lucifer Song #5)

Beam of Light

This is the 5th song in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer Album, a totally unplanned album that's givin' birth to itself. Loosey Goosey Lucifer, the Goddess of Light is up in space and sees a big old beam of light coming from Earth. It's, as far as she can tell, the brightest source of light on Earth. She's gonna ride her magic singing fly on down to Earth and see what it is.

This is the little church the picture at the tip is referring to. (It's the church in Song #3 of this here album-in-the-works).

Backwards Back to Bed

 

Back to bed backwards

This is the next song on the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. I perform the song I did 2 songs ago backwards and then turn it around for your listening pleasure. The lyrics (cuz it might be hard to tell) are: This did not go so swimmingly/he got so mad, he saw red/I need a shot of gin, you see/and then I'll go back to bed. Well, okay, the picture is kinda tangentially related to the song. Well, maybe not. It's of that fight that the song's about, although the song didn't really go into that particular detail of the fight.

I Am Loosey Goosey Lucifer

I Am Loosey Goosey Lucifer

 This is the 4th Loosey Goosey Lucifer song. This series of songs might just turn into an album, man. Man, oh, man. In this song, she's in outer space on her magical singing fly and is about to send some light down to Earth for the benefit all all the beings on Earth. Oops, wait. The light bounced off! Oh, no! The darkness of Earth was too dense, and the light cannot penetrate it. What is she going to do? Stay tuned.

Gosh Darn It All

Gosh Darn It All

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. It's more of the epic saga of the massive fight that ensued when the girl tried to fix the relationship by addressing the fact that she was uncomfortable around him, with him. I dunno if that sentence makes sense. In any event, this is sorta a musical journey cuz it has different things in it.

One Church

This li'l demo popped out on Tuesday. Here it is.

One Church

Here's the fleshed out version:

Only Just One Church

 It's a song about a little church of people who want to make a difference and save the world and stuff. They don't think they can, though.

Big Fight

Big Fight

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. The girl tries to fix her relationship with her mean boyfriend by telling him she's not comfortable around him cuz he's so mean. They get into a big fight.. She realizes she didn't fix the relationship.

Maybe Too Light (Loosey Goosey Lucifer, Part 2)

Maybe Too Light

 The hook of this song came to me in a dream, and it was one of those dream-songs, where it's not all the way clear what it's about. But, then, lucidity came in, and I realized it could be another song that builds on the Loosey Goosey Lucifer theme. So, it's sorta a Loosey Goosey Lucifer, Part 2 song. It's like oh, maybe it's too light, as in, the light that she brings to the world is so bright that people're afraid it'll burn their retinas and stuff.

Wait, hang on.....

Maybe Too Light Mix 2

 

After a few listens, I realized, while I like the poetical goodness of the verses, they needed a little something extra to make it interesting and things. See, the number of repetitions of the same melody made my ears start to fall asleep because the human brain is wired to tune out things that become repetitious. So I added a little extra spicy goodness to the second halves of the verses and did a little remixing while I was at it. Here's the souped up version of the second Loosey Goosey Lucifer song, complete with an artist's rendering of what Loosey Goosey Lucifer might look like.

Mix 1 (the one that might make your ears fall asleep):

Mix 2, which might make your ears stay awake:

Demo of one of these Relationship Songs

 This is a demo of one of the upcoming fucked up relationship songs.

All Alone Demo

 

Loosey Goosey Lucifer - Polished Version

Loosey Goosey Lucifer Polished

 Here's that song I recorded about a week and a half ago on my birthday. This is the polished version where I reworked some o' the lyrics and stuff and added a rap and a bridge to it. Yes siree. Just to recap, it's a song that's sort of about the irony of people associating the name, "Lucifer," with the devil, when said name means something to the effect of "light bringer." In this song, Lucifer is female, rides on the back of a giant fly, and spreads light to this world that is in desperate need of light. As mentioned earlier, this little cat, who's name is Luci is just 3 letters short of being, "Lucifer," (as in Luci + fer = Lucifer).

We Need to Talk

We Need to Talk Mix 2

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. It's where the girl realizes and admits to herself that she's not comfortable with her boyfriend. She wants to fix it, so she decides to talk to him about it.

I Need to Fix this Relationship

I Need to Fix This Relationship

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. The girl realizes she's not comfortable around her boyfriend; she finally admits it to herself. That's when she decides that she needs to fix the relationship.

Loosey Goosey Lucifer

Loosey Goosey Lucifer

 As per my usual, I'm doin' a song on my birthday. It's not about my birthday, per se, but it felt like a good song to do on my birthday, nevertheless. Included is a picture of Luci, who, if you added a "fer" on the end of her name, would have a name spelled, "Lucifer," sorta like the cat in Cinderella. This song's lookin' at the idea that, while the name Lucifer is often associated with the devil, it is also a name that brings light or something. It's a light-bringer name, as in, the world might be lighter with someone named Lucifer in it and all that. This is a rough draft.

Not Gonna Die Today

Not gonna die today

 This is a song about not plannin' on dying today. Sorry 'bout the crap vocals...I wasn't gonna record anything today cuz of that, but the Music Gods had other plans.

We're Concerned for Her

We're Concerned For Her

We're Concerned for Her Grandpa Mix

Here's the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. This time the main character's friends and family weigh in on what they think of the whole relationship-thing.

Peyote in my Goldfish Dish (Covid Song)

 

Peyote in my goldfish dish

 Here's the next Covid song, cuz I have Covid. An odd little piece o' music came to me in a dream, while I was initially comin' down with Covid. I dunno if I had a fever at that point or not, but in any event, Covid has the habit o' givin' me wonky dreams, chock full o' wonky lyrics. I made said weird-dream-song into a rap song, during which I try to make sense o' those wonky dream lyrics. I don't do a very good job tryin' to make sense o' them, though.

I Don't Know How To Do It Anymore

 

I Don't Know How To Do It Anymore

This song came to me in a dream, I think it was. It kinda goes with that whole "I don't know how to live in this world" theme that is prominent in that fire god album I did a couple years ago. I guess so. I guess so. Yes. Well, there's also a dream Jung had where he sees his shadow projected on a wall, and it's there cuz he's carrying this little tiny light that casts said shadow. I guess I sorta draw from the Allegory of the Cave by good ole Plato. It's a song about life being dumb. I have no idea of I use curse words in this or not, so I'll tag it as being "explicit" just in case. This is the depresso-genic depresso song. Don't listen to it, unless you wanna be real depressed.

Sing It Backwards

Sing It Backwards

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. In the previous song, the main character is bemoaning the fact that she actually had the thought that she might not like her boyfriend as a person. I mean, he's the love of her life, after all! What a horrifying thought to have. She decides to say (or sing, as the case might be) the bad thought backwards. Maybe saying a bad thought backwards will erase the original bad thought. It'll make it as if the original bad thought never happened. It's worth a try.

God Loves Us Demo

 Here's a second, and even more rudimentary, demo of a song I'm about to do. I'm gonna put it on a timer so it goes live in a couple weeks, cuz I might not have time to do music cuz I'll be havin' company.

God Loves Us Demo

 

Not Done With The Last One

Not Done With the Last One

I wasn't planning on recording a song but one popped outta me. It's depresso-land adventures. And a demonstration of my bad free-styling-ness.

This Tree Fell

This Tree Fell

 Here's the next mediocre song of the new year. Or maybe it's fine, I dunno. In any event, it's playing around with that expression./statement thingy about if a tree fell in the forest when nobody is there, would it make a sound? I say that's dumb cuz forests are filled with other trees and animals, and they'd all hear the tree falling down.

Wait

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 3. The girlfriend, one day, has a weird, shocking realization: She might not actually like the mean boyfriend, after all. Like, what? He's the love of my life; how can I not like him? 

Wait introduction