A Thousand Deaths

In the most recent installment of the movie I'm making, Jesus says "a thousand deaths." When I played it back, I realized it sorta made a melody when he said it, so I made it into a song. Here it is.

I Don't Care About Vampires Anymore

 
I was downloading a bunch of old ditties of mine onto a computer from the Typepad website cuz it's no longer gonna exist, come September 30. (That's why you're no longer see those blue, underliney song player thingies). I needed to do that cuz those songs would be hard for me to find, y'know, cuz I have 'em on a bunch of random thumb drives and stuff. 

Anyway, there were a couple years where I did lots of songs about vampires. I realized I haven't really thought about vampires in a long time, so I did this song.

Here are the lyrics (since the rapping is a little fast in places):

I don't care about vampires anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

Maybe it is cuz I've lost some interest

Am I depressed? Maybe so

I don't care about vampires anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

There was a time period when vampires 

were on my mind and I've been a fan

of the series that is called, "Buffy

the Vampire Slayer." It was so lovely

And don't forget "Twilight." Those books

can be addictive and I was so hooked

They were like crack. I'd go through that stack

of books so fast. They were always in my backpack

In 2009 I wrote many 

songs about all those vampires that sent me

into Fantasy Land with some sexy

glamorous vampire-man. Let me

tell you, the change in my brain from that time till

now ain't the best. I'm depressed and I'm filled

with some apathy. Is that why

I don't care about vampires? And my

songs got dark, with no spark in the context

of the badness and sadness. My song-fest

now is grim. The world is in trouble

My feelings are dim, and my sadness is doubled

Or do they just sound stupid to me now?

Fucking sucking blood is astoundingly boring now

An sometimes, I wonder why I was in-

to them. Now it seems like it's something 

arbitrary. Now it seems like it's random

to be a member of such a fandom

But maybe someday, I will go back

to the vampires, who have capes that are so black

and the blood sucking will once more be something

that I wanna watch. It'll be a fun thing.

But now I will say to you today

that vampires are as boring as Tuesdays

I don't care about them anymore

I don't care about them anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

Part 2 of Hell Movie: Part 2

Here're the installments of part 2 of Hell Part 2. The first part of Part 2 was getting long, so I thought I'd start a new entry of Hell entries. Here's a link to the first part of Hell: Part 2.

Part 1 of Hell Part 2

Under Construction (walking Jesus needs a lot of work):

Fire 5 Miles Away

Yes, Typepad seems to be getting unstable - can't upload the song. Sigh. I'll try again tomorrow. But the player thingy at the bottom still works. 

That was a trip; my Watch Duty app thingy told me this afternoon that there was a brush fire in my town. I was all, oh gosh. Then it grew from .25 acres to 5 acres, and I'm all, oh gosh. I started gettin' my ducks in a row in case I had to evacuate. But they put the fire out after about an hour. Phew.

We Will Be Fine - Tribute to Graham Greene

We Will Be Fine Reprise for Graham Greene

 Well, poop, Typepad isn't working, so I can't do the little blue underliney link thingy player thingy. Anyway.... [Edit]: got it working this morning, but.....

[Edit]: Holy crap, I found out Typepad is going to stop existing on September 30, 2025, so, everyone: the blue, underliney song player thingy is no longer going to work on September 30. (Fuck!!!!) All that said, if you wanna take advantage of the blue underliney thingy player thingy, do it now before it stops working. Download songs, do whatever is needed. Arrrgh!!!!!

I got real sad yesterday when I found out Graham Greene died. He was one of my favoritest actors in the world. I actually wrote a requiem in 2015 for a character he played, who died, in the movie, Skins. Anyway, I got sad, so I did a little reprise of an old song from 2021 in honor of him. I changed some o' the lyrics and did a new rap. But my apologies to anyone within earshot of this song, and my apologies to Graham Greene, as well: My voice is extra special jacked up today. Ugh. Dust mites? Am I coming down with something. I might be fighting off a cold. Anyway, here it is.

Messing Around With New Recording Device

 

NEWSONG02_z

I'm messing around with a new recording device; this recording's really dry because I haven't gotten to the part of the manual with the bells and whistles in it yet. And I forgot to turn off my white noise machine, so that's the hiss you hear in the recording (there were screaming kids outside - I don't like them). If the white noise machine hadn't been turned on, it'd be a really clean recording, I think. I think so.

10 Mile Wide Freeway

10 Mile Wide Freeway

 This is the 1st song of the 3rd Loosey Goosey Lucifer album. The Drunk Church finds out that a 10 mile wide freeway is being planned by the government. They wonder where it's going to go, and they are apprehensive about nature being paved over.

The Invisible Girl

The Invisible Girl

 This is a song about bein' invisible, but it's not s super power. It's just plain old being invisible. Or maybe it is a super power, but the invisible person doesn't know it yet. The picture ain't directly related to the song, but it's kind of a similar concept.

I Don't Need You Anymore

I Don't Need You Anymore Mix 2 

This is a song about one of those last-straw moments. The straw that broke the camel's back. The final papercut of a death by a thousand paper cuts. And whatever other metaphor you can think of.

Singing at the End

Singing At The End

 

The Drunk Church sings at the end of the world. (My 5000th end-of-the-world-song). That first point sounds like a church, though, which is kind of nice. That was my goal.

This bottom, bonus track is something that I think has potential but my voice was all crap-tastic in parts of it, so I wanna go back and fix it maybe.

I Don't Need You Anymore

 

Where Did The Drinking Church Go?

Here's a song I'm doing today (8/9/2025) but putting on a timer so there'll be a song that goes live in a week cuz I might not get a chance to do music next week. 

This song is about the massive poopy writer's block I'm experiencing, and it's kind of crappy. I guess a crappy song about doing crappy songs is a fine thing. I miss my drunk church. I hope they come back to me. Maybe they're standing behind me and I don't know it.

When the Sun Goes Supernova

 

This is a super rough mix of a song inspired by that fire up there. And my old high school being used as an evacuation shelter, which trips me out. I'll do a better mix tomorrow and add the other little player thingy.

Supernova rough mix

8/9/2022: Yeah, it's a song about how when the sun goes nova, no one will be around to watch it (and get burnt up), cuz we'll all already be burnt up, cuz the state of California is burning down.

Here's the better mix that I did today, along with the other little player thingy:

When The Sun Goes Supernova

 

Here's a wee little bonus demo thingy.

Singing at the end demo

 

Half Blind for Movie

I'm having another friend-visit the weekend I have this song scheduled to go live. Just wanna keep the momentum going of song-posting-goodness. I don't know if one of these is going to be the final version or not; I might try again cuz my voice is janky today. It's gonna be the song for a little mini music video in the movie I'm makin'. The definitive version of this song was recorded way back in 2023. 

Half blind higher from 72725 again

 

Half blind high higher instruments 72725

 

Half low 72725

 

2 Stoned

2 STONED

 Those edibles can last a long time sometimes.

2 STONED Mix 2

 Edit: Yeah, there was one word in the rap that was kind of hard to understand cuz I got the syllables all wrong, in terms of emphasis, so I fixed it in Mix 2. The melody o' this song came in a dream, and I'll probably use this melody later on, maybe something with sadder lyrics, in a Loosey Goosey Lucifer song or something to that effect. But I'm kinda cool with this version of it, cuz it's kind of sad in its own right.

Coffee Song

 

Coffee Song

 I'm posting this a week in advance and I'm putting it on a timer so it goes live next Friday (Today's July 26, 2025). I'm gonna be havin' company the next 2 weekends, so here's something for next week (which will be this week by the time it goes life). 

I was fixin' to make some coffee, when this song came to me. Oddly, I was able to get all the way down to middle C in my singin'. Usually D or E are the bottom of my vocal range, or F on bad days. 

Stupid Song Song

Stoopid Song Song

This is a song about a song I was working on yesterday that sucked. I stopped working on the song that sucked cuz it sucked, and I focused my attention on this here song, which is a song about the song that sucked.

From Yesterday:

This is a really rough mix that needs a lot of work and stuff. I'll make a more final version tomorrow and add the other little player thingy and all that.

Stupid Song Song Rough Mix

 

I'm not doing much country music these days

Country no song mix 1

This is a song about how i haven't done country music in a while. it's a really shitty mix. sorry bout that. fried, sleep-deprived me needs to go to bed.

The Falling Down a Hole Song

 

The Hole Song

 There're people falling down a hole in the movie I'm making; theme music of that scene is an instrumental version of an old song that I turned around backwards in Audacity. I'm all, huh, I kinda like that backward melody; so I made a song with that melody, along with a little hook that came from a dream. It's kinda sorta about that scene a little bit. Or, in any event, it's a song about people falling down a hole together.

 

I Don't Want To Be Celebrating The 4th of July

I don't want to be celebrating

 This is a song about how I don't want to celebrate the 4th of July (so I won't).

Bonus Tune: A little instrumental magic - part of a soundtrack thingy I'm working on.

7625HALF

 

Wish You Could Stay

Wish You Could Stay

 There are probably a thousand songs with this name, but it came to me in a dream, so here it is. It's about missing someone, as you can probably tell from the title.

Oh dear lord, listen to mix 2 instead of Mix 1: I realized this song was in dire need of restructuring, so I spliced a little extra repetition-y part in. Oh, dear lord.

Wish you could stay mix 2

 

All My Songs Are Boring These Days

All My Songs Are Boring These Days

 Sorry for the rough mix; it got late and stuff, so I'll do the poking-around-in-my-DAW-to-make-a-better-mix tomorrow. This is a song about how it's been feelin' like my music gets old really fast recently. I dunno if that's due to depression-related dysphoria, or if it's just that my music is sucking these days. In any event, that's what this song is about.

New Face

New face

There are times I find the mirror can be unkind. This is a song about getting a new face. It turned out to be about something different than I thought it was gonna be about.

Bonus Track: It's not very good.

Death Owl

A New Dark Age

A New Dark Age

Here's my song in response to recent events, like California Senator Alex Padilla getting manhandled, and all the crazy fucking insane nuts stuff happening in our country. We're heading into a new dark age. We're probably already there. Oh yeah, I attempted to draw a little caricature profile thingy of Dump. I don't know if you can tell that's him or not.

The Ghost of a Broken TV Set

The Ghost of a Broken TV Set

 This is a song about being the ghost of a broken TV set. It's sorta a metaphor for depression a little bit.

Bonus Track for this week:

Dark and horrible for the movie

This might end up in the Hell movie I'm making. It might.

Today's Another Nightmare

Today's Another Nightmare

 This is a song that's kind of almost a true story. It's about a person who only has nightmares instead of regular dreams. I still have regular dreams, but when I try to have lucid dreams, they always end up being horrible. I don't know if you'd call 'em nightmares technically speaking cuz it doesn't have a disturbing climax; but they're disturbing and shitty.

Grandma's in Heaven

Grandma's In Heaven

 

Crap, I couldn't get the mix right, bleh. I think it's cuz my voice doesn't have much resonance and stuff. That's what I get for trying to teach myself how to do heavy metal screaming and fucking up my voice (there isn't any of that in here - I sound like the kid in The Shining when I try to do it, ha ha ha). Anyway, this is a song about the spirit of someone's grandmother being in Heaven and communicating with that person that even though life sucks, there's a purpose to it. You're not really allowed to know what that purpose is until after you're dead. Who knows if that's the case in real life or not?

Oh yeah, I fuck around and experiment with keeping the same drum beat and baseline, but making the rest of the music go from 6/8 time to 4/4 time. Just for shits and giggles.

And Then There Was Nothing

Then There Was NOTHING1

 This song was inspired by a dream where people died in a big flash of light and explosion-y-ness. It's about a person who is a ghost, stuck on earth, with the memory of her death repeating over and over.

Skinny, Unstoned Brain

Skinny Unstoned Brain

 This is a song about those tolerance holidays or whatnot. At least I thought they were called tolerance holidays, but Google AI thingamagigger sez no. But Wikipedia sez yes - or it said something to the effect of, yes, going off meds for a while is called a holiday. So, there ya go. Anyway, it's a song about taking a break from pot to make one's tolerance go down. That's what this song is about.

Here's a bonus song - it's about being sucked into the belly of the beast, which is where we are right now.

Belly of the Beast Part 1

 Another bonus song - it's just me fucking around.

1230 song

 

Drier than a Bone

Dry As A Bone

Damnitall, I tried this new supplement today, and it dried me out to the point where I can hardly even sing - argh! I mean, crap - I haven't been this dehydrated in a long time. My singing sounds like ass-wipe, as a consequence. But here's a little number where I'm messing around with the theme of being all dried out cuz that's what I am. Argh.

Here are the other 2 songs I tried doing [edit: and a remix of the song above], but they sound like ass-wipe, but here they are. The universe one - I want to try doing that again when my throat isn't as dry as a fucking desert. It's an old ditty, and I think the song, itself, is fine, but the recording SUCKS BALLS!!!!!!!

Dry as a bone Mix 2

The Universe Is Spinning On Its Side Rough Draft

Whiskey on Top

Edit: Whiskey on Top grew on me, so here it is in that alternative player thingy. I think I might put it in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer album: Part 2.

Waiting for Me/House of Ghosts

WAITING for Me

 This is a song about ancestors comin' around to get you and take you to the afterlife when you die. It's a happy song about death.

What Would Happen If I Did A Song Where I Kept All The Mess-Ups In It?

MESSUPS Song

 I was recording a song today and, as usual, messed up a lot and recorded over the mess-ups. The question occurred to me: What would happen if I did a song and kept all the mess-ups in it? Here it is!! 

There Were Ghosts Last Night

There Were Ghosts Last Night

  This is a song about having ghosts in your house and offering them a beer. Or whiskey or gin or something.

What's Gonna Become of Us?

What's Gonna Become of Us

 It's another song about the fucked up world, and the likelihood of said world ending soon. I had this F# minor chord ringing over the whole thing that added a little color to the regular chords of the song, and it made it extra-special-depressing and stuff. This song is God-flushing-humanity-down-the-toilet-themed.

The Anti-Christ

ANTICHRist

 This is a song about the anti-Christ comin' and stuff. It came to me to have the song be peaceful and sad. When I was a kid and I had end-of-the-world-dreams, they were sad. There was just this great sadness hanging in the air. That's sorta the vibe o' this here little ditty.

Covid Is Coming To Town

Covid Is Coming To Town

 This is a song about when Covid was on the horizon - we were waiting for it to get here. Y'know, probably January-ish/February-ish of 2020. Something along those lines. There was that ominous feeling of a thunderhead on the horizon approaching slowly. You knew things were going to get bad, but you didn't know how bad. And you see it comin' and comin' and comin', and there's nothing you can do to make it stop. It's almost like the slow approach of Covid was like watching an accident in slow motion or something. It's just this thing happening and you can't make it stop. Oh, and the whole thing about toilet paper.

Post-script (5/28/2025): I kept on listening to the wee little demo I made before I recorded the "final" version of the song and was really fond of it. So, I re-worked things and made half of the wee little demo into the very first part of the song. We'll see how I feel about it later on, but I'm kinda liking it. See below.

Covid is coming to town reworked

 

Backwards and Weird Forwards Storm Song

Backwards Tornado Song

 It's been about 2.5 years since I've recorded a backwards version of one of my songs - geez, has it been that long? This is a song that's in that Hell-movie I'm working on. But I performed it backwards and stuff.

Storm Song Turned Around

And here's what it sounds like when you turn the song up there around.

Here's a link to the first part of the movie (it's going to be in 3 parts).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qb-nfREM3Kk&authuser=0

Hell Movie: Part 2

 Here's the dumping ground for the installments of Part 2 of the Hell movie I'm working on!

Weirdly, coincidentally completed on July 20, 2025

My apologies to Chester Bennington for the crappy voice imitation:

Probably done being Under Construction:

Next part of Hell!

Part 2 of Hell Part 2

Maybe I'll Get Really Drunk

Maybe I'll Get Really Drunk

 Yeah, in times such as these, there's not much more that you can do than get really drunk. 

I'll go back to drawling little cartoon me pictures to illustrate the songs really soon; I was too lazy to do it today, so here's a picture of a kitty.

Natural Dream (Rough Cut)

Natural dream mix 2

 I think this is a decent song, but it's a crap recording. Bleh. But it's a song about how we've gotten away from who we're naturally supposed to be, as a species.

A Rip in the Universe

 

This is just me messing around. I was recalling the days when I said really weird things when I was rapping cuz I was trying to get rhymes and stuff. I just went hog wild saying weird things to make many rhymes in the rap at the end. The song is (loosely) about what the title says it is about.

Rip in the universe 1

Rip in the universe mixx 2

 

I Wonder If There's Something Wrong With Me

I Wonder If There's Something Wrong With Me

 I woke up feelin' off this morning, yes, indeed, and I wondered if there was something wrong with me. Then I remembered this song from yesteryear I did a long time ago. It's a wee little ditty about wondering if there's something wrong with me - I think it was 2002 that I did it. This is sorta an updated version; I don't really remember what the original one sounded like, though, so maybe it's a whole new song.

Two Ghost Houses

Two Ghost Houses

 This song is a true story: I used to live in Altadena, and ever since the fire, I was wondering how my old house and how my landlords' house fared (they're right next door to each other). A friend and I drove there a few weeks ago, and my old house and my landlords' house are still standing! The house next door to my landlords' house was also standing. But the whole rest of the block, and most of the rest of the street, were burnt down - just total devastation. These 2 houses, which used to be such happy places, looked sad. They looked ghostly. They looked like houses that didn't know what to do with themselves, being on a block of houses that had been destroyed. They looked desolate and uncanny. That's what this song is about.

The lyrics are:

(There were) two ghost houses in a ghostly part of town, standing next door to a house that hadn't burned down
Once, I lived in Altadena

It's a town that's been a pal to me, the

Years I lived there, oh eight and oh nine

I can say were so great and so fine

I lived in a little guest house

Next to my landlords; it was the best - how

Sweet a deal it was to move to that

Neat, appealing place with my 2 cats

(There were) two ghost houses in a ghostly part of town, standing next door to a house that hadn't burned down

In January, I was aware the

Weather might get mighty bad and hairy

A windstorm formed that was like Hell's fury

It was not normal, and I got worried

My friend texted me - I was learning

From him that Altadena was burning

In the aftermath, I wondered had my

Old house and landlords' house survived that bad night?

I have memories of those 2 houses; bring back those memories of those houses

Two ghost houses in a ghostly part of town, standing next door to a house that hasn't burned down

My friend who texted me and I took a drive

To see if that old house of mine had survived

It was standing and the landlords' was, too

Was it a grand thing? Damn, I am feeling blue

Them and the next door one were the only

Ones that had not burned down - they looked lonely

They looked mostly ghostly and uncanny

Surrounded by ruins as far as my eyes can see

(There were) two ghost houses in a ghostly part of town, standing next door to a house that hadn't burned down

Hell: Part 1

Here it is for your viewing pleasure!

It's Better to Fight

Better to Fight

Better To Fight Mix 2

 Similar to yesterday's tune, I'm doing another little number that sort of fills in the blanks on the Loosey Goosey Lucifer Album, Part 2 that I'm working on. Loosey Goosey Lucifer, the Goddess of Light, is getting ready to tell the Drinking Church, members, who are in a state of sad resignation, that it's better to fight the evil dictator who has taken over their country.

What Do You Do?

What do you do

 This is another song in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer Album, Part 2. I'm not sure which number song it'll be...maybe the 3rd. The Drunk Church is resigned to dying because the world is doomed.

Hell Movie: Part 1

This is the first draft of the first part of the Hell movie I'm working on. Note: I really wanna get the audio in better shape cuz my animation software exports it in mono...stay tuned for a stereo version.

I Want To Do The Chester Bennington Music

I Wanna Do The Chester Bennington Music

 The hook of this song came from a dream, and stuff. It's about Chester Bennington and stuff. I started judging myself in the middle of writing/recording it. You might be able to tell.

Crap Songs About Owls

Crap songs about owls

 This is a crap song about how all my songs about owls end up being crap songs. I've only written a couple of them, but they were all crappy. And shitty, too.

Doomsday Fly

 

Doomsday fly

 

This is another song in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer Album, Part 2; it's another song from the point of view of the fly. This fly has psychic abilities and has taken a trip to the Doomsday Clock. This fly has a warning for humanity, sort of.

Cautious Optimism

Cautious optimism

Cautious optimism mix 2

 I don't think the words, "cautious optimism," are actually in the song, but that's what the song's about, and stuff. I'm considering using this music or a better version of it for the closing credits o' the first chapter of the movie I'm working on. I haven't decided yet. See, it's the end of the first part of a trilogy, but the trilogy will be all one big movie. It's like, hey, let's end on a hopeful note, but not too hopeful.

You can take a look at what I have so far of the movie - it's on the December 24, 2024 entry on this blog - the installments are somewhere between 30 seconds and 4 minutes long, the average being, probably, 45 or 50 seconds.

Okay, I did a 2nd mix; in imagining this song being the closing of a chapter of a 3-part movie, I realized it felt like the instruments needed to be louder in order to achieve the type of feelings/ambiance/goodness I wanted to evoke.

Spirits of Drunk People

 

Spirits of drink people

 This is a song about earthbound spirits of drunk people. Whoops I fucked up on the title of the mp3 file above - it should be "spirits of drunk people," not "spirits of drink people."

Better Again Rough Draft

 Rough Draft poopy poopy ones.

Better Again

 

It's Not Me

 

It's Not Me Mix 2

 There was a little snatch of songy-ness I had years and years ago when I was improvising stuff after smoking weed. I decided to make a song out of it and stuff. It's that usual theme of humans destroying the Earth, and me being an alien and looking on. My voice is poop today, to the extent that I'm almost a little embarrassed to post this.