Last Day of 2025

When people say, "Thank God this year is over - it's ring in the new year," I feel like they're tempting fate...like, remember when people were all, "Thank God 2019 is over - yay, 2020"? Then there was Covid. Let's not tempt fate this time around.

Gloomy Gus Song 4 and a Half

I recorded this song on Christmas, and as of last night didn't really think it went with the rest o' them; but it fits nicely, nestled between song 4 and song 5. The song 6 one I'm a little ambivalent about; either I'll figure out how to use pitch correction or have another go at it.

Gloomy Gus Song 6

Here's a li'l restatement of that new theme in the last Gloomy Gus song. Actually, if you follow this, I did an initial version of a song with this melody a while back but didn't know what it was supposed to be about, and stuff. This song seems to belong here in this here album. Yeah, man. Yeah. Although I kinda like the old version of it, too.

 

Gloomy Gus Song 5

 Gloomy Gus wakes up to...what the heck? Music comin' from he does not know where.

4th Christmas Song (And all the rest down at the bottom)

 

I wanted to do a 4th Christmas song this year, so that I'd have 4 Christmas songs. Then it makes a nice, well-rounded, square-shaped Christmas song cycle.

 

Here're all the Christmas songs in chronological order (with big, dumb, long pauses at the end of them):

The Ambivalent-About-Christmas-Songs-Christmas Song

The Less Ambivalent-But-Still-A-Little-Ambivalent-Christmas Song

The Drunk Church Weighs In On Christmas Song Stuff

Just One More Christmas Song to Round it Out

 

Here's Christmas Song #3, I guess you could call it. Number 3. A song about how Christmas is sort of kind of a celebration of Jesus's birthday, but not on His actual birthday.

Another 2025 Christmas Song

I don't think I've ever been to a Midnight Mass before, but here's a song for one.

Xmas 2025

 Just a quick little ditty to get everyone into the holiday spirit. Well, maybe not.

Different Version of some of the vocals because the first version annoys me:

Give Up The Ghost (Gloomy Gus Song #4)

Poor Gloomy Gus; he sure is gloomy. He's thinking about what his epitaph will eventually say, but he can't come up with any ideas. (This is the 4th song in the Gloomy Gus and the Forest That's About to Die album).

I must confess - whoops - I accidentally plagiarized part of a rap from another song o' mine. I didn't realize it till after the fact. Oh well, I guess it's legal if it's your own self that you're copying from.

Post-script: The player at the very bottom is a slightly tweaked version where I got RID OF THE OUT OF TUNE VOCALS - Arrrrrghghghgggghhghgghhghghgh. Maybe I'll looking into some pitch correction devices, ha ha.  As usual the MP4 version of the song has a big, dumb, long pause at the end cuz the MP4 converter online thingy wants to do that for some reason. 

Part of the Theme Song of the Hell: Part 2 Movie

The first part (before the rapping comes in) is gonna be part of the sound track of the movie I'm working on. It's gonna be in 3 parts; the first part o'' the movie is already on YouTube (make sure the player thingy is on high definition if you choose to watch it). Part 2 is still in a bunch of wee, bite-sized installments that I'm eventually gonna put together just like I did for Hell Part 1 and upload onto YouTube (and maybe other places). Anyway, this is a fragment of a song I wrote in 2023; it's a song that's kind of the theme song of Hell: Part 2. Boodles the Poodle is in Hell: Part 2.

Scroll to the bottom for a slightly better version (I had put the wrong emphAsis on the wrong syllAble at one point, and it was driving me crazy, so I fixed it).

Hell: Part 1:

https://beckyshomemadesongs.blogspot.com/2025/04/hell-part-1.html

Hell: Part 2:

https://beckyshomemadesongs.blogspot.com/2025/04/hell-movie-part-2.html

New and improved version (with a big, dumb long pause at the end):

It's Just the Way It Is (Gloomy Gus Song #3)

This is song #3 in the Gloomy Gus album. I wasn't expecting to record a song today, but I was washing dishes, and this song came to me. Well, it's more of a variation-on-a-theme-song, I guess you could call it. Jung would hate it cuz he hates polyphonies. Actually, the singing part is more call-and-response-ish, now that I'm thinking of it, so maybe Jung wouldn't hate it. But I think he'd probably hate the part at the end cuz the rapping-over-the-singing stuff has a polyphony-ish flavor to it.

Or maybe the piano melody under the main theme part counts as being a polyphony...maybe so. Maybe Jung would hate this song, after all!!

Gloomy Gus song #2

This is the second song in the album with the working title, "Gloomy Gus and the Forest That's About to Die." Gloomy Gus is busy being all sad and gloomy, when he hears music coming out of (seemingly) nowhere. What is this?????????

(This is one of those scratchy vocal cords weeks - I dunno if I'll redo any of these vocals or not).

Here's a possibly better mix (with a dumb, big, long pause at the end):

Gloomy Gus

I'm posting this a day early cuz I'm having company tomorrow, so I won't be doin' my usual Friday song. Actually, me and said company are gonna work on a song, but it's gonna be a long-term project. Stay tuned for that!

This is an alternative version of the song I wanted to record last week but didn't cuz my voice was all janky. I'm considering starting a new little concept album. This song and another song came to me and said, "Make an album out of us!" So, I might just do it. If that's the case, this might end up being Track #1 of said new concept album.

why my songs sound like shit these days

 

If you follow this music page, you've probably noticed that my voice has been deteriorating over time...basically there's a mystery something or other that's negatively impacting my health and giving my cats health issues too, and it's a bad thing. That, combined with lack o' sleep did a number on my dumb voice this week. Bleh. I think I know what the mystery something-or-other is - well, lemme take that back. I don't know what the mystery something-or-other is, but I know where it came from. And even though I got rid of the thing that contaminated the house, the badness is sticking around. Lots and lots of badness.

The Room I Never Use

This is a song from the point of view of a person with a mystery-room in her house. It relates to Jungian psychology stuff. If I'm remembering correctly, all of us have parts of ourselves that we don't accept, so we push them outta conscious awareness, and they end up in the Shadow, which is almost like this being made up of a conglomeration of parts of us that we don't accept about ourselves. I think I'm getting that right, but I might be wrong about that. Anyway, the room in the song might just signify that shadow complex. I don't know yet.

Now that typepad is dead and gone, I've been trying to figure out how to have more than one audio player on here in case the above one isn't compatible with people's portable electronic devices. I think I found the solution (sort of).

....this is thingy down below is an MP4 file of the song, where I'm pretending it's a video  (blogspot lets you upload videos, but not music - hence the MP4 nature of this). That way, if the above player thingy doesn't work on your portable electronic device, here's another option...If this DOES work, this is a slightly different version of the song, in which there is a little instrumental part in it to break up the monotony of it.

Okay, the online converter thingy where i converted it into a movie file messed up a bit, and there's a big long space at the end. But, anyway, here's another option of a music player thingy you can listen to it on.

I Hate Halloween

 I really don't like Halloween anymore. I used to, but recently, it's been sucking really bad. I can't wait for November 1 to roll around.

Post-script: Upon listening to this after the fact, I'm realizing it sounds a little harsh. The "fuck you" and "go to hell" aspect of things isn't aimed at the cute little kids who came to my door between the hours of 6:30 and 8:30 - it's aimed at the obnoxious assholes that kept coming to my door till 9:38pm. You just cain't have a chill night when people are ringing your bell ALL fucking night long. There. 

The Devil is Living in My House

 This is a song about trying to get rid of the devil and stuff.

The furry thing at the top of the picture is part of my cat.

They Thought I Was Gonna Have a Short Life

This is another song where I took a sample from that movie I'm makin' and made it into a song using the melody that the person talking's voice forms. Yes. The title pretty much conveys what the song's about.

Here are the lyrics cuz the speeeeedy nature of the rap (and the consequent slurring of some words, ugh).

They thought I was gonna have a short life

Ghosts inside my living room are playing

Pac-Man and then this thing they start sayin'

Gives me the creeps. They said that I would 

Not live long. What's wrong with me? My goodness

The Ghost of All Things in the Past

Said, "Yer toast." Oh, no! I can see that's 

Something that will give me anxiety

Mind's freaked - I don't like it

The Ghost of Future Happenings

Told me something that is saddening

He boldly told me, "You will be deader

Than a door nail. You won't get better

Cuz You'll Be dead. And then I saw

The Ghost of All Things Present, oh my God

He said I'd kick the bucket and then he 

Disappeared. Shit. What he said sent me

Down a big spiral. My world is getting

Stupid and confusing. Is the sun setting

On my life? I don't know how to 

Take this news. I guess I'll say, "Wow, dude."

They thought I was gonna have a short life

Will I see more Christmases?

What they said would happen is the pits

Will I see more birthdays now? 

What the spirits said makes me say, "Wow."

Will I die of some disease?

I hope that this passing is easy

But I guess I cannot choose

How I die, so I'll drink some booze

They thought I was gonna have a short life

Years Ago - 2025 Version

I was downloading hundreds of my old songs a few weeks ago cuz Typepad was going defunct (that's site that hosted the little blue player thingies that you probably see on older entries but are no longer here cuz it's gone). 

I came across this old ditty that I'd forgotten about, and I realized it's a nice little tune (or, at least, that's what my ears think - others might not agree). So I did a cover of my own song just for shits and giggles. It's a lot different from the original cuz I added a B phrase and some rap and stuff. And I experimented with making the bass really super deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep about 1/3 of the way into the tune.I mean, the original of this song is quite nice, but I was in the mood to revisit this old ditty, so here it is. It's a song that I originally wrote years ago that's called "Years Ago." That's an odd thing, all by itself.

Stupid Singing

This song could mean that I'm a stupid person singing; or it could mean that I'm a person singing stupidly. (And, now that I think of it, both are true in real life). The spirits mentioned in it could be booze or they could be spirits of dead people. I guess.

A Thousand Deaths

In the most recent installment of the movie I'm making, Jesus says "a thousand deaths." When I played it back, I realized it sorta made a melody when he said it, so I made it into a song. Here it is.

I Don't Care About Vampires Anymore

 
I was downloading a bunch of old ditties of mine onto a computer from the Typepad website cuz it's no longer gonna exist, come September 30. (That's why you're no longer see those blue, underliney song player thingies). I needed to do that cuz those songs would be hard for me to find, y'know, cuz I have 'em on a bunch of random thumb drives and stuff. 

Anyway, there were a couple years where I did lots of songs about vampires. I realized I haven't really thought about vampires in a long time, so I did this song.

Here are the lyrics (since the rapping is a little fast in places):

I don't care about vampires anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

Maybe it is cuz I've lost some interest

Am I depressed? Maybe so

I don't care about vampires anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

There was a time period when vampires 

were on my mind and I've been a fan

of the series that is called, "Buffy

the Vampire Slayer." It was so lovely

And don't forget "Twilight." Those books

can be addictive and I was so hooked

They were like crack. I'd go through that stack

of books so fast. They were always in my backpack

In 2009 I wrote many 

songs about all those vampires that sent me

into Fantasy Land with some sexy

glamorous vampire-man. Let me

tell you, the change in my brain from that time till

now ain't the best. I'm depressed and I'm filled

with some apathy. Is that why

I don't care about vampires? And my

songs got dark, with no spark in the context

of the badness and sadness. My song-fest

now is grim. The world is in trouble

My feelings are dim, and my sadness is doubled

Or do they just sound stupid to me now?

Fucking sucking blood is astoundingly boring now

An sometimes, I wonder why I was in-

to them. Now it seems like it's something 

arbitrary. Now it seems like it's random

to be a member of such a fandom

But maybe someday, I will go back

to the vampires, who have capes that are so black

and the blood sucking will once more be something

that I wanna watch. It'll be a fun thing.

But now I will say to you today

that vampires are as boring as Tuesdays

I don't care about them anymore

I don't care about them anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

I don't care about vampires anymore

Part 2 of Hell Movie: Part 2

Here're the installments of part 2 of Hell Part 2. The first part of Part 2 was getting long, so I thought I'd start a new entry of Hell entries. Here's a link to the first part of Hell: Part 2.

Part 1 of Hell Part 2

My software crashed - the beginning of the next one is supposed to be the end of this one (fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck):

Probably done being Under Construction (sorry about the inconsistency in volume in the dialogue - i'll fix that when put all these pieces together into the final movie thingy:

Done being Under Construction (Crap, the program crashed before I could add the polish I wanted to add) (but it didn't look that good anyway); the computer's in the shop right now, and hopefully that problem will be fixed. I'm hoping to start the next scene in the next few days; it'll be slow-going cuz it's kind of involved (and I have some company coming)) Stay tuned!:

Under Construction (needs a little souping up):

Fire 5 Miles Away

Yes, Typepad seems to be getting unstable - can't upload the song. Sigh. I'll try again tomorrow. But the player thingy at the bottom still works. 

That was a trip; my Watch Duty app thingy told me this afternoon that there was a brush fire in my town. I was all, oh gosh. Then it grew from .25 acres to 5 acres, and I'm all, oh gosh. I started gettin' my ducks in a row in case I had to evacuate. But they put the fire out after about an hour. Phew.

We Will Be Fine - Tribute to Graham Greene

We Will Be Fine Reprise for Graham Greene

 Well, poop, Typepad isn't working, so I can't do the little blue underliney link thingy player thingy. Anyway.... [Edit]: got it working this morning, but.....

[Edit]: Holy crap, I found out Typepad is going to stop existing on September 30, 2025, so, everyone: the blue, underliney song player thingy is no longer going to work on September 30. (Fuck!!!!) All that said, if you wanna take advantage of the blue underliney thingy player thingy, do it now before it stops working. Download songs, do whatever is needed. Arrrgh!!!!!

I got real sad yesterday when I found out Graham Greene died. He was one of my favoritest actors in the world. I actually wrote a requiem in 2015 for a character he played, who died, in the movie, Skins. Anyway, I got sad, so I did a little reprise of an old song from 2021 in honor of him. I changed some o' the lyrics and did a new rap. But my apologies to anyone within earshot of this song, and my apologies to Graham Greene, as well: My voice is extra special jacked up today. Ugh. Dust mites? Am I coming down with something. I might be fighting off a cold. Anyway, here it is.

Messing Around With New Recording Device

 

NEWSONG02_z

I'm messing around with a new recording device; this recording's really dry because I haven't gotten to the part of the manual with the bells and whistles in it yet. And I forgot to turn off my white noise machine, so that's the hiss you hear in the recording (there were screaming kids outside - I don't like them). If the white noise machine hadn't been turned on, it'd be a really clean recording, I think. I think so.

10 Mile Wide Freeway

10 Mile Wide Freeway

 This is the 1st song of the 3rd Loosey Goosey Lucifer album. The Drunk Church finds out that a 10 mile wide freeway is being planned by the government. They wonder where it's going to go, and they are apprehensive about nature being paved over.

The Invisible Girl

The Invisible Girl

 This is a song about bein' invisible, but it's not s super power. It's just plain old being invisible. Or maybe it is a super power, but the invisible person doesn't know it yet. The picture ain't directly related to the song, but it's kind of a similar concept.

I Don't Need You Anymore

I Don't Need You Anymore Mix 2 

This is a song about one of those last-straw moments. The straw that broke the camel's back. The final papercut of a death by a thousand paper cuts. And whatever other metaphor you can think of.

Singing at the End

Singing At The End

 

The Drunk Church sings at the end of the world. (My 5000th end-of-the-world-song). That first point sounds like a church, though, which is kind of nice. That was my goal.

This bottom, bonus track is something that I think has potential but my voice was all crap-tastic in parts of it, so I wanna go back and fix it maybe.

I Don't Need You Anymore

 

Where Did The Drinking Church Go?

Here's a song I'm doing today (8/9/2025) but putting on a timer so there'll be a song that goes live in a week cuz I might not get a chance to do music next week. 

This song is about the massive poopy writer's block I'm experiencing, and it's kind of crappy. I guess a crappy song about doing crappy songs is a fine thing. I miss my drunk church. I hope they come back to me. Maybe they're standing behind me and I don't know it.

When the Sun Goes Supernova

 

This is a super rough mix of a song inspired by that fire up there. And my old high school being used as an evacuation shelter, which trips me out. I'll do a better mix tomorrow and add the other little player thingy.

Supernova rough mix

8/9/2022: Yeah, it's a song about how when the sun goes nova, no one will be around to watch it (and get burnt up), cuz we'll all already be burnt up, cuz the state of California is burning down.

Here's the better mix that I did today, along with the other little player thingy:

When The Sun Goes Supernova

 

Here's a wee little bonus demo thingy.

Singing at the end demo

 

Half Blind for Movie

I'm having another friend-visit the weekend I have this song scheduled to go live. Just wanna keep the momentum going of song-posting-goodness. I don't know if one of these is going to be the final version or not; I might try again cuz my voice is janky today. It's gonna be the song for a little mini music video in the movie I'm makin'. The definitive version of this song was recorded way back in 2023. 

Half blind higher from 72725 again

 

Half blind high higher instruments 72725

 

Half low 72725

 

2 Stoned

2 STONED

 Those edibles can last a long time sometimes.

2 STONED Mix 2

 Edit: Yeah, there was one word in the rap that was kind of hard to understand cuz I got the syllables all wrong, in terms of emphasis, so I fixed it in Mix 2. The melody o' this song came in a dream, and I'll probably use this melody later on, maybe something with sadder lyrics, in a Loosey Goosey Lucifer song or something to that effect. But I'm kinda cool with this version of it, cuz it's kind of sad in its own right.

Coffee Song

 

Coffee Song

 I'm posting this a week in advance and I'm putting it on a timer so it goes live next Friday (Today's July 26, 2025). I'm gonna be havin' company the next 2 weekends, so here's something for next week (which will be this week by the time it goes life). 

I was fixin' to make some coffee, when this song came to me. Oddly, I was able to get all the way down to middle C in my singin'. Usually D or E are the bottom of my vocal range, or F on bad days. 

Stupid Song Song

Stoopid Song Song

This is a song about a song I was working on yesterday that sucked. I stopped working on the song that sucked cuz it sucked, and I focused my attention on this here song, which is a song about the song that sucked.

From Yesterday:

This is a really rough mix that needs a lot of work and stuff. I'll make a more final version tomorrow and add the other little player thingy and all that.

Stupid Song Song Rough Mix

 

I'm not doing much country music these days

Country no song mix 1

This is a song about how i haven't done country music in a while. it's a really shitty mix. sorry bout that. fried, sleep-deprived me needs to go to bed.

The Falling Down a Hole Song

 

The Hole Song

 There're people falling down a hole in the movie I'm making; theme music of that scene is an instrumental version of an old song that I turned around backwards in Audacity. I'm all, huh, I kinda like that backward melody; so I made a song with that melody, along with a little hook that came from a dream. It's kinda sorta about that scene a little bit. Or, in any event, it's a song about people falling down a hole together.

 

I Don't Want To Be Celebrating The 4th of July

I don't want to be celebrating

 This is a song about how I don't want to celebrate the 4th of July (so I won't).

Bonus Tune: A little instrumental magic - part of a soundtrack thingy I'm working on.

7625HALF

 

Wish You Could Stay

Wish You Could Stay

 There are probably a thousand songs with this name, but it came to me in a dream, so here it is. It's about missing someone, as you can probably tell from the title.

Oh dear lord, listen to mix 2 instead of Mix 1: I realized this song was in dire need of restructuring, so I spliced a little extra repetition-y part in. Oh, dear lord.

Wish you could stay mix 2

 

All My Songs Are Boring These Days

All My Songs Are Boring These Days

 Sorry for the rough mix; it got late and stuff, so I'll do the poking-around-in-my-DAW-to-make-a-better-mix tomorrow. This is a song about how it's been feelin' like my music gets old really fast recently. I dunno if that's due to depression-related dysphoria, or if it's just that my music is sucking these days. In any event, that's what this song is about.

New Face

New face

There are times I find the mirror can be unkind. This is a song about getting a new face. It turned out to be about something different than I thought it was gonna be about.

Bonus Track: It's not very good.

Death Owl

A New Dark Age

A New Dark Age

Here's my song in response to recent events, like California Senator Alex Padilla getting manhandled, and all the crazy fucking insane nuts stuff happening in our country. We're heading into a new dark age. We're probably already there. Oh yeah, I attempted to draw a little caricature profile thingy of Dump. I don't know if you can tell that's him or not.

The Ghost of a Broken TV Set

The Ghost of a Broken TV Set

 This is a song about being the ghost of a broken TV set. It's sorta a metaphor for depression a little bit.

Bonus Track for this week:

Dark and horrible for the movie

This might end up in the Hell movie I'm making. It might.

Today's Another Nightmare

Today's Another Nightmare

 This is a song that's kind of almost a true story. It's about a person who only has nightmares instead of regular dreams. I still have regular dreams, but when I try to have lucid dreams, they always end up being horrible. I don't know if you'd call 'em nightmares technically speaking cuz it doesn't have a disturbing climax; but they're disturbing and shitty.

Grandma's in Heaven

Grandma's In Heaven

 

Crap, I couldn't get the mix right, bleh. I think it's cuz my voice doesn't have much resonance and stuff. That's what I get for trying to teach myself how to do heavy metal screaming and fucking up my voice (there isn't any of that in here - I sound like the kid in The Shining when I try to do it, ha ha ha). Anyway, this is a song about the spirit of someone's grandmother being in Heaven and communicating with that person that even though life sucks, there's a purpose to it. You're not really allowed to know what that purpose is until after you're dead. Who knows if that's the case in real life or not?

Oh yeah, I fuck around and experiment with keeping the same drum beat and baseline, but making the rest of the music go from 6/8 time to 4/4 time. Just for shits and giggles.

And Then There Was Nothing

Then There Was NOTHING1

 This song was inspired by a dream where people died in a big flash of light and explosion-y-ness. It's about a person who is a ghost, stuck on earth, with the memory of her death repeating over and over.

Skinny, Unstoned Brain

Skinny Unstoned Brain

 This is a song about those tolerance holidays or whatnot. At least I thought they were called tolerance holidays, but Google AI thingamagigger sez no. But Wikipedia sez yes - or it said something to the effect of, yes, going off meds for a while is called a holiday. So, there ya go. Anyway, it's a song about taking a break from pot to make one's tolerance go down. That's what this song is about.

Here's a bonus song - it's about being sucked into the belly of the beast, which is where we are right now.

Belly of the Beast Part 1

 Another bonus song - it's just me fucking around.

1230 song

 

Drier than a Bone

Dry As A Bone

Damnitall, I tried this new supplement today, and it dried me out to the point where I can hardly even sing - argh! I mean, crap - I haven't been this dehydrated in a long time. My singing sounds like ass-wipe, as a consequence. But here's a little number where I'm messing around with the theme of being all dried out cuz that's what I am. Argh.

Here are the other 2 songs I tried doing [edit: and a remix of the song above], but they sound like ass-wipe, but here they are. The universe one - I want to try doing that again when my throat isn't as dry as a fucking desert. It's an old ditty, and I think the song, itself, is fine, but the recording SUCKS BALLS!!!!!!!

Dry as a bone Mix 2

The Universe Is Spinning On Its Side Rough Draft

Whiskey on Top

Edit: Whiskey on Top grew on me, so here it is in that alternative player thingy. I think I might put it in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer album: Part 2.

Waiting for Me/House of Ghosts

WAITING for Me

 This is a song about ancestors comin' around to get you and take you to the afterlife when you die. It's a happy song about death.

What Would Happen If I Did A Song Where I Kept All The Mess-Ups In It?

MESSUPS Song

 I was recording a song today and, as usual, messed up a lot and recorded over the mess-ups. The question occurred to me: What would happen if I did a song and kept all the mess-ups in it? Here it is!!