I Don't Know What To Say

I Don't Know What To Say

 I've been wanting to write a song like this for a long time. Y'know how when music comes to you in your dreams, it sometimes keeps changing constantly, in a really cool way? Like, it goes from one part to the next to the next to the next, in a smooth sequence? And when I wake up to write it down, I can only capture just a teeny tiny part of it, and all the rest of it falls out of my memory. 

Well, this morning, I kept waking up and hearing a fragment of a song; so I'd write down that fragment and then go back to sleep. Well, that bit o' music would be stuck in my head, and then in the next dream, the music would play, and then go to the next part of the larger song that it is. So, I'd wake up and write that next part down. I kept repeating that process 5 or 6 times, and then I made a whole song out of it.

All the lyrics are from the actual dreams (except for the intial rap, and except for the part where I sing about it being the last day of 2022 - that part of the song didn't actually have lyrics in the dream, so I had to make 'em up after the fact). 

The lyrics are:

I had a dream with a song in it, and then I wrote it down
And then I fell asleep and the next part of the song came out
And I kept repeating this process, and it don't make me frown
It's an evolving song from dreams, and this is how it sounds:

I don't know what to say, I don't know what to say

It's the last day of 2022

I love you, but our relationship is complicated
I love you but our relationship is complicated

I don't know what to say, I don't know what to say

Quack, quack, like a duck - oh my gosh

That leaves us terribly in danger
That leaves us terribly in danger

That leaves us solidly in danger
That leaves us solidly in danger

I don't know what to say, I don't know what to say

He Said I Am A Genius

 

He Said I Am A Genius

This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album; it's about how, well, the boyfriend in question used to call me a genius. Well, in the next couple songs, you'll see the specific circumstance that prompted him to say it at one point.

The lyrics are:

He said I am a genius

He said I am a genius

And he is a genius, too

He is the best man in the world

How can I compare

Anyone to this man?

I do not even dare?

He said I am a genius

He said I am a genius

And he's a genius, as well

2022 Was Such a Strange Year

2022 Was a Strange Year

 This is a song about how 2022 has been a strange year for me.

It's the Night of Very Strange Madness Coming In Through Their

It's the Night of Very Strange Madness Coming Through Their Living Room

 

This is a song about getting spooked after watching a spooky TV show. It came from a dream. 

Yeah, I've been watching Stranger Things a lot...I can tell ya that it is a spooky show, indeed. A spooky show that spooks me.

Chester Christmas Song

 

Chester Christmas Song

 I liked the keyboard part in the previous song, so I thought, hey, let's put that melody in another song and make it a 2-song piece of music thingy. Like, 2 Christmas songs in a row that are connected to each other sorta. It felt like a good idea to make it a tribute to Chester Bennington and Linkin Park and my favorite song in the world, "Shadow of the Day." That song has the same chord progression in it as this one (yeah, I mean, okay. It's a chord progression I probably use too much, but, oh, well).

The lyrics are:

When the day is done
There'll be no more sun
And that makes me think of Chester
"Shadow of the Day" is my very favorite
Linkin Park song and it's better

Than the bestest thing you can imagine
It has love in it
It was sung in a very good fashion
That's why it's a hit

Better than the best
And I must confess
All I want for Christmas is Chester
To be here again
Maybe we'd be friends
And I know my life would be much better

It's the bestest thing you could imagine
As a Christmas gift
Seeing Chester sing in a good fashion
Would give my heart a lift

I like the keyboard melody of the
Last Christmas song, so I had an idea
Let's extend the melody into
A new song - make it one big piece of music
And make it a tribute to Chester
Bennington. Nothing could be much better
Than a tribute to my favorite song
And Linkin Park - hey, let's all sing along

When the day is done

There'll be no more sun

And that makes me think of Chester

I'm Gonna Be Sick For Christmas

I'm Gonna Be Sick For Christmas

 This is a song about how I came down with a cold a few days ago and I still have it. Blast, I'm gonna be sick for Christmas. Blast!

Why Did I Break Up With Him?

 

Why Did I Break Up With Him

This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album; it's the chopped up version of the previous one. It continues with the theme of the main character's regret about breaking up with her ex-boyfriend.

A year ago, I was having fun
My tears now flow - everything's mundane
My new boyfriend is a jerk
I don't think this ever will work
My old boyfriend - I wish he was here cuz we would drink some beer
And, oh my, we might even smoke pot - I'd like to smoke a lot

Why did I do that?
Why did I break up with him?
I've gotten so sad
And my feelings are grim
If I could turn back the clock
That is what I would do
My new boyfriend does not rock
Rather he is a poop-head

When America Fell

When America Fell Shorter

 I think the shorter one is probably better, but you can listen to the longer one, too.

When America Fell

The melody of the verse of this song came from a dream, and the words of the chorus came from another dream. It's about America falling, as in the United States no longer being the United States. 

The lyrics are: 

Do you remember where you were?
Do you remember where you were...

When America fell
When America fell
When America fell
When America fell

It's a flashbulb memory for
Lots of people - it left us floored

When America fell
When America fell
When America fell
When America fell

One day we woke up and the United States
Was a memory and we said, "Hold on, wait"
This doesn't seem like it should be true
I said, "What the fuck?" and "Oh, shit, where's the blue
And red and white flag?" It has just disappeared
And I think we will shed many tears
And I will soon drink whiskey and many beers

When America fell:
We did not see it coming
When America fell:
Will this be a good thing?

When America fell
When America fell
When America fell
When America fell

Here's the shorter version:

Here's the longer version - I'm not sure which one sucks less. Hmm.

Once Upon A Time, I Was All Fucked Up

 

Once Upon A time I Was All Fucked Up

 This is a song about not being fucked up anymore. 

I Traded You For Something Else

 

I Traded You For Something Else

 This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album; it deviates from the frame of this album just a teeny tiny bit because it's a song where you get the main character's discourse that she doesn't want her current (mean) boyfriend to hear, but it's not a chopped up version of a previous song. See, this song came to me in a dream this morning, and I felt like the song was askin' me to record it. So I did. It's about the girl's regrets about leaving her old boyfriend.

The lyrics are:

I traded you for something else, something else
I traded you for something else, something else

This is a song for my ex-boyfriend
I'm in the wrong for making things end
Many nights, I dream about you, and when I wake
I feel ever so gosh darn blue cuz of my mistake

I traded you for something else, something else
I traded you for something else, something else

I should not have done that
And I was so stupid, and I was so stupid
I should not have done that
And I am a poop-head

I'm feeling really sad, and I'm feeling stupid
At myself, I am mad cuz I am a poop-head
Why did I break up with the man who is actually nice?
Now, I am with one I can't stand - he's as cold as ice

To me, and I can see this was a big mistake
Compared to the new guy, you were so great
But I am in denial of my big mistake
My mind keeps telling me that the new guy is great

I traded you for someone else, someone else
I traded you for someone else, someone else

My new boyfriend is not
As nice as you, nice as you
I wish we did not break up
And there's nothing I can do

I traded you for someone new

I traded you for something new

Twenty Four Hours Ago

 

24 Hours Ago

24 Hours Ago - Mix 2

 This is a song about how life can change on a dime. After bad news comes, it can make youre head spin to realize how different your life was the day before the bad news came. I had to sing sotto voce cuz a friend o' mine is working in the next room. But, then again, the quiet nature of the vocal stylings goes with the depresso nature of the song.

poop

Seeing the Sunrise Makes Me Feel So Bad

 

Seeing the Sunrise Makes Me Feel So Bad

 This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album...it's the final song where I riff on the "He's My Universe" song. The night described in this song was so disturbing that the main character gets real bad insomnia - bad to the point where she doesn't sleep at all and ends up watching the sun rise in her still-awake-state.

The lyrics are:

It was a horrifying night I had
Seeing the sunrise made me get so sad

Usually the sunrise is so nice
Today, it's a ball of fire that burns like ice

Usually, the sunrise is so
Beautiful with colors that do glow
But I did not sleep all night and I
Saw the sun rise come through my tired eyes

My boyfriend is scaring me so bad
And after the night that I just had
I wonder if he is who I
Thought he was or is he a bad guy?

I do not want to repeat that night again
It makes me want to retreat from my boyfriend

And he will wake up in time
And I wonder if he is slime
But it's hard to believe it
And I wonder if he is a shit

I'm starting to miss my old boyfriend
Thing were funner until they did end
He did not give me insomnia
And with him, I smoked marijuana

It was a horrifying night I had
Seeing the sunrise makes me feel so bad

I Guess I Am Really All Fucked Up

I Guess I Am Really All Fucked Up

 This is another song about being all fucked up - it came to me in a dream a few days ago. I accidentally plagiarized one of the melodies in the Christmas/holiday song I recorded earlier this week. Crap, crap, crap, poopshit, poop, fart, crap. I guess I'll post it anyway, cuz I like the song well enough, even with the inadvertent plagiarism in it. 

The lyrics are:

I guess I am really all fucked up and I am hating life

Let's get stoned and we will forget all our crappy days
We'll have flown to the baked-cake world in the sunshine's rays

I didn't think I'd write a song like this, this week
But, today, my dream came along and it did speak
What I mean is this song came to me in a dream
Maybe my psyche was just blowing off some steam

I guess I am really all fucked up and I am hating life

Maybe this life is not son bad, but I feel like it is dumb
In a world that makes me get sad, I'll go drink some rum

I guess I am really all fucked up and I am hating life

If you feel like this, you are probably not alone
Shit, I say, "crikey," let's get together and get stoned
Everyone feels like this at some point in their life
The pain of living is as sharp as a big knife

I guess you'd say I am all fucked up and I am hating life

Christmas 2022 Song

Christmas 2022 Song

 Will this year's Christmas song be as good as last year's? Here it is; you can go ahead and be the judge of it, yourself. Yessiree.

The lyrics are:

I don't know if my Christmas song will be as good as last year's one

It'll probably suck an awful lot and not be as much fun

But, Merry Christmas, anyway

I hope that you all have

A really good stupid holiday

And I cannot find a word that rhymes with "have"

That rhymes with "have"

But have a good one, anyway

I Wish I Could Get Stoned Every Single Day

I Wish I Could Get Stoned Every Single Day

 This is a song where I wanted to pretend I was stoned and improvising, even though I'm not actually stoned. That can sometimes hook me into that stoned-ish mindset. It's a song about wanting to get stoned every single day. The lyrics are:

The lyrics are:

I wish I could get stoned every single day

I wish I could get stoned every single day

It would be real nice to get stoned tonight

It would like very much to get stoned tonight - tonight

My day is so regimented

It is boringness-scented

Every once in a while, I have dreams about getting stoned

I Have the Worst Insomnia of My Life

 

I have the worst insomnia of my life

 Here's the next song in the fucked up relationship album. It's another song that piggy backs on the "He's My Universe" song - in this song, you get to continue to find out how fucked up this fucked up relationship is. The picture's an excerpt from a graphic novel I'm working on, that's about this very fucked up relationship.

The lyrics are:

I have the worst insomnia of my life
Cuz the man who said I'd be his wife
Is sleeping like a baby in bed
On the night that all my feelings bled

I feel so bad that I actually want to die
Is what he had to say yesterday just a lie?
When he said "Marry me - you're the love of my life"
And tonight he cut my feelings with a big knife

He said I wasn't worth anything if I did
Not give him a compulsory blow job - oh, shit
I don't got no mouthwash - maybe I'll drink some bleach
Burn out my insides, and I want to scream and screech

Why did he treat me like that? It must be my fault
I'm a misbehaving tike and so he almost called
The relationship off cuz he was so appalled
By whatever I did - I guess it's all my fault

Maybe I'll go out in the snow and not come back
I'll pay for all my sins, and my feelings are black
And I don't know if I can ever face him now
I'm too upset to cry, and he sleeps soundly somehow

I had the worst insomnia of my life

I'm Fucked Up

 

I'm So Fucked Up

This is another song that came to me in a dream. It's about being fucked up.

The lyrics are:

I'm fucked up, I'm so fucked up; I'm so fucked up; I'm so fucked up

How does it feel to be fucked up?

I'm fucked up, I'm so fucked up; I'm so fucked up; I'm so fucked up

I wish I was fucked up in just
Only one way but, well, I must
Say it's Baskin Robbins fifty
One flavors of fucked-up-ness in me
I wish it was just weed, but
This fucked-up-ness exceeds what
Weed does to the common brain and
I'm the Mayor of Fucked Up Land

How does it feel to be so fucked up?

I can say it feels fucked up to be fucked up, and I'm fucked up

My eyes get wet and misty
When I wish it was whiskey
Or pot or beer making me weird
Or mushrooms; it's not those, I fear
It's a mystery to me why
I'm so fucked up...am I dy-
ing? I don't think so but my brain
Feels like it is getting untamed

How does it feel to be fucked up?

I Like Heavy Bass Lines

I Like Heavy Bass Lines

 This song is about how I'm fond of heavy bass lines. I think my music would suck without 'em.

He's My Fucked Up Universe

He's My Fucked Up Universe

 This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album. This is the song where you find out how truly fucked up this relationship is. Trigger warning: this song might be triggering for people who've had sexual trauma in their lives. Shit, man.

 The lyrics are:

He's my universe

The second night, the second night - wow

The first night, we got engaged
The second night, I felt his rage

He's my universe tonight

The first night, we got engaged
The second night's a different page
Of the book that is my life
The second night was filled with strife

He's my universe tonight

The second night, the second night - wow

We tried to have sex, but we found that his dick couldn't get off the ground
His equipment did not work, and he turned into a big jerk
And he blamed me for the whole thing
And said some words that made me sting
He said there'll be no silver ring, unless I promise to suck his thing
He threatened to break up with me if I did not give him head
But he's so wonderful, how could this be? And I wanted to be dead
I thought he was compassionate, but he's scaring me so bad
And his actions are of a fashion that makes me so very sad

He's my universe, he's my universe
He's my universe tonight

He always comes first, and he is my special king

He's my universe tonight

There's Ashes In My Village

Ashes in My Village

This is another one o' those songs that came to me in a dream - actually, both the A and B phrases did, and I put 'em together to make a nice little ditty about hopeless despair. 

The lyrics are:

There's ashes in my village, my village, my village
There's ashes in my village

I want to be there

My village is burning down to the ground, and I
Want to be there; I want to save the town, but I'm
Also aware that if I am around, we still
Don't have a prayer, and that makes me feel down
Sadness is looming around, and I found
Gladness will never in habit this town
Burnt down, broken and confused, how'd we lose
Everything? This is not the live that we'd choose

There's ashes in my village, my village, my village
There's ashes in my village

I want to be there

He's My Universe

He's My Universe

 This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album. The boyfriend guy has grown in importance to the point of being the whole universe in the eyes of the main character. The whole universe!!!!

The lyrics are:

He's my universe and I can say
I wish I could see him every single day

He's my universe, he's my universe, he's my universe today
And when when we're apart it does break my heart
He's my universe today

It was nice to see him the other day
And I wish that he had not gone away

He's my universe, he's my universe, he's my universe today

He is my universe, and he is everything
He always comes first, and he is my special king
He's the king of everything, and I cannot deny this thing
And soon I'll have a diamond ring; I swoon, and my heart starts to sing

He is so great
And I can hardly wait to see him again

He's my universe, he's my universe, he's my universe today

I Used To Make Fancy Sounds On My Guitar

I Used To Play Fancy Stuff On My Guitar

 This is a song about how, when I listen to really old recordings, like, from when I was in college and stuff, I realize, I used to do a lot more fancy stuff on my guitar then than I do now.

Engaged !

Engaged!

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album. Yessiree, the main character finds out that, yes, indeed, her boyfriend had actually been proposing to her! When she said, "Sure," he assumed that she wanted to get engaged. Oh, no!

The fucked up thing is - this is a true story! This happened to me 24 years ago. Crikey. Yeah, I figured, well, okay. I'm not ready to get engaged, but he's all excited: If I say, "No, wait, I didn't mean it," then he'll be all butt-hurt. So, I kept my not bein' ready to be engaged a secret. Dang, man, dang.

The lyrics are:

He said, "We're engaged!"
Oh, fuck
Oh, fuck

This is way too early a stage
In this relationship to get engaged
And I did not know he was proposing
To me and I feel hosed
If I say, "Wait, this is a mistake,"
He'll take it the wrong way
He'll be butt-hurt and distressed
Yes, if I say that, I confess,
That this is not what I wanted
I don't even know if he's fun in bed
So, I'll make the best of it
But in my mind, I say, "Oh, shit"

He said, "We're engaged!"
Oh, fuck
Oh, fuck

So, I guess I'll go with it
But in my mind, I say, "Oh, shit"
And he's too cheap to have a ring
To put upon my stupid finger
But, he promised silver
We'll see if he delivers
Some silver for the bride and groom
And I hope that I'm not doomed

Let the Comfort Hold Me Back

Let The Comfort Hold Me Back

The hook for this song came from a dream, and I did that thing where I try to weave dream-stuff into a coherent narrative. Here it is!

The lyrics are:

A million years is an awful long time
That I had fears that I drownded with wine
In a million years, I will be in the same chair
Looking through my tears, and with a break stare

Let the comfort hold me back

I'm in a comfort zone of not moving on all the things that I should be doing
And I feel stupid - am I a poop head? Or just not suited to that thing you said
About getting out and doing more - oh, wow - maybe that will make me sore
I would much rather sit here and drink beer, cuz it is funner than facing my fears

Let the comfort hold me back

A million years
And I cannot complain
Cuz I have beers that sing to me like rain

Let the comfort hold me back

I'm a Loser

 

I'm a Loser

Here's a song about being a loser. I might be one, but y'know, I guess that's okay. I mean, given that this world has winners in it, I guess there have to be losers. Us losers are giving winners the ability to exist.

The Girl With The Silver Rings - Cliffhanger #2

The Girl With The Silver Rings Cliffhanger 2

Here's the next song in the fucked up relationship album. Y'know how last week, the narrator was sayin' she was in shock and is getting ready to tell the audience something? Here's where she starts to say it. Y'know how lotsa couples say stuff like, "Someday when we're married, we should get purple silverware?" As in, someday, in the distant future, we'll get married and do stuff. But not right now. Well, in this song, the boyfriend sez, "will you marry me?" and the gal says "sure," thinking it's one of those casual exchanges. But then he gets all excited looking. What's gonna happen next? Stay tuned next week!

The lyrics are:

He showed up at my house for the first time
And everything seemed to be just fine

He said, "Will you marry me?"
And I said, "Sure!"

That is how couples always talk like
They say, "Let's get married and have tykes"
I figured that's just a way to say,
"I love you dear," and "Have a nice day"

But he got an excited expression
Shit, was I under the wrong impression?
I figured it was just a casual
Way to say our feelings are mutual

He said, "Will you marry me?"
And I said, "Sure"

Alienation

Alienation

I woke up from a dream about alienation, which has been the theme of my life this week, so I wrote a song about it. Alienation sucks.

Just a side-note; I've been considering doing a concept album of a strange sort. Y'know how Linkin Park has done albums in a number of different genres? And, like, how the most recent one was pop music? I've been wondering to myself: What would it sound like if Linkin Park did a country album? What would it sound like???????? Listening to this song a few nights ago, I wondered if it sounded like that very idea - the conglomeration of Linkin Park and country music. I mean, yeah, it sounds like that to me, but other people might think I'm deluded. Ha ha ha.

The lyrics are:
It was a shock
My alarm clock

Woke me up from that dream
That had a dumb stupidity theme
Am I crazy for being here
Inside this dumb life that gives tears?

I had dreams that I was a poop-head
I had dreams about being dumb
I had dreams about being stupid
And at work, I was all thumbs

This situation of alienation
Might cause vast migrations from the human nation
Why'd we want to stay if we're weird at all?
We said no way

My dreams told me
That I'm not free

Every situation is running to The Great Migration
Into the blue, I lost my station
Of being human in this nation
I had dreams about being stupid

I had dreams about being dumb
I had dreams that I was a poop-head
And at work, I was all thumbs
So many of us are in lives where we cannot stand it
And I wonder if we have landed on the wrong planet
And fitting in is getting harder every day
It's shitty to be here - can we just go away?

I had dreams about being stupid
I had dreams about being dumb
I had dreams that I was a poop-head
And at work, I was all thumbs

La la la, Meow, meow meow

Will you come with me into my dreams?
And I'll show you what I mean
But we might stuck inside them

That would really suck

We Don't Need So Many Humans On This Planet

 This is a fun li'l ditty about how humans are overpopulating the earth and are destroying it, as a result. I was trying to make the vocals sound like a really bad version of Phish, but they ended up sounding like the Muppets, instead. I guess that's okay, though.

Oh, yeah, the bridge is a resomething. Revisitation? Rebar? Rehash? What's the name for it? A reprise, that's it. The bridge is a reprise of a song I did about a year ago, I think it was. It fit there, yeah.

The Typepad site that hosts the other little player thingy is continuing to malfunction, because I was able to upload the song, but now it doesn't play. Crikey. But here it is, just in case it starts working again:

We Don't Need So Many Humans On This Planet

The lyrics are:

We don't need so many humans on this planet

People have too many kids, and they get into all you things
This is what the humans did: to the Earth, destruction sings
We destroyed the living room of the earth, that is our house
And we're bringing our own doom: We're like an abusive spouse

We looked to the mountains, mountains in your eyes
The trees that died are mounting, and the mountain cried

We don't need so many humans on this planet

The Girl with the Silver Rings Cliffhanger

The Girl with the Silver Rings Chopped Up

 This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album. The girl is getting ready to tell her story...the story she doesn't feel comfortable telling in front of her yucky boyfriend. But she's in such a state of shock that she can't tell it yet. But she's getting ready to tell it.

The lyrics are:

The girl with the silver rings, the girl with the silver rings
Her story might be long
So, bear with me as I tell the story of the girl with the silver rings

I think I am in shock
And I don't know what to say
I think I am in shock
It's been a really, really weird day

I plum don't know what to say, I plum don't know what to say
It make take another song for me to say it all the way

I will tell you what just happened - just imagine something big
I don't think you'll be a glad friend - no I think you'll flip your wig
And I can tell you that I am feeling like I'm upside down
Yes, I frowned, I'm turned around, and my jaw has just hit the ground

I don't know what to say, but I know that one thing's clear
It has been a fucked up day, so I think I'll have a beer

I think I'm really fucked up

I Just Wanna Sleep Forever

I Wanna Sleep Forever - Mix 1

 I got the hook for this song after I smoked some, and I realized it could be interpreted as something really dark. So I made it about wanting to live in the land of dreams, cuz I've always found dreams to be homey.

The lyrics are:

I just wanna sleep forever

I want to stay in the land of dreams
But I know reality says I can't stay

I want to stay in the land of dreams
But I know reality isn't that way
Ever since I was a kid, dreams felt more normal
to me than real life, which is boring
And the places in the dreams are homey
to me, maybe that's why get stoned
Cuz the mental states when I smoke pot
Alter my thoughts quite a lot, I kid you not
To make me feel like I am dreaming again
Take me back there, weed - you are my friend

I want to stay in the dream of the long road to the pizza place
I want to stay in the dream of my old college dorm it puts a smile on my face

I just wanna sleep forever

I wanna sleep forever

The Mix 2 one is with the vocals I originally recorded, which I found to be problematic, but upon further reflection, I'm realizing both sets of vocals suck. 

I Just Wanna Sleep Forever - Mix 2

 

Sadness Hangs in the Air

Sadness Hangs in the Air

 I was tryin' to write a song about a great sadness that hangs in the air over the entire earth. I'm trying to go for a ghosty sound, but this is more of a just plain ole country song. That's okay, though, cuz maybe someday that ghosty sound'll come to me.

The Girl/Man With The Silver Rings

Silver Rings -Mix 2

 Here's the next song in the fucked up relationship album; it's based on an actual song I wrote 24 years ago. But the original one didn't have a country-ish vibe or rap in it. I guess the only similarity is the chorus, now that I think of it. 

The lyrics are:

She was searching all her life
But nothing ever felt quite right

Till she found

The man with the silver rings

He was worshipping in the Church of the Silver Light
And he was searching all his life

For the

Girl with the silver rings
The girl with the silver rings

She likes silver much better than gold and he said he'd been told
That some witches don't like to wear gold cuz it makes their hearts cold
And they both like silver, and it is more than a silver lining
And it is a surely a sign that together they will be just fine
It's more than a coincidence, and it feels like it is fate
That they ended up together, and now they can hardly wait
For the day that they get married and they will have their silver rings
On their fingers until the day they die - it's the bestest thing

They were searching all their lives
And they know it is alright

Cuz they found

The man with the silver rings
The girl with the silver rings

The time has come and now they're in Heaven
Thanking their lucky stars
And now they're in Heaven

They both have silver rings

Halloween Song

Halloween Song

Backwards Halloween Song - Mix 2

 I realized I've done songs for most of the major holidays I celebrate, but I hadn't done a Halloween one yet. I did the same thing as yesterday, but slightly different. Instead of singing the whole thing backwards and then turning it around, I sing it forwards and then backwards; then I turn the whole thing around.

The lyrics are:

It's Hallween
It's the dark time of the year
It's Halloween
And I'll make one thing clear

I want to be a witch when I grow up

Zeert Uth Vyess Eew Nack/ Can We Save The Trees?

Zeert Uth Vyess Eew Nack

 

Can We Save The Trees

 I tried doing this thing where I wrote a song and then I sang the lyrics backwards. Then I turned it around so you could hear a weird song with the actual lyrics. It was an experiment. 

The lyrics (of the turned around version) are:

Can we save the trees?

People keep killing them
Soon they will be gone
Let's stop killing them
So I wrote this song

Can we save the trees?

Bring the forests back
If they go away
I'll be a sad sack
Let's let the trees stay

When the trees are gone, humans will have nothing to breathe
No more oxygen will be here, and we'll start to wheeze
Not to mention all the animals and plants that they
Shelter with their leafy branches - let's let the trees stay

Can we save the trees?

If you, yourself want to save somewhere close to 4000 oak trees, here's a petition for you to sign:

https://www.change.org/p/stop-the-dana-reserve-development-as-currently-designed

 

Just to Hear Him Breathe (He's Old)

 

Just To Hear Him Breathe (He's Old)

Just to Hear Him Breathe (He's Old) - Mix 3

Just to Hear Him Breathe (He's Old) - Mix 5

 This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album, which is a chopped up version of the previous song. In this song, the narrator discusses concerns about the relationship that she doesn't feel like she can share with her old-guy boyfriend. She's all worried about him being so old that he's guaranteed to die first, and she'll be a widow. 

Just a funny side-note: I'm now a year older than the ex-boyfriend was that I'm singing about as being so old. Ha ha ha, wow, that's weird.

The lyrics are:

What if he dies? He's a real old guy
I do not know how many years of life he has in him

He might die in the middle of the night and I won't know that he died
Because I'm a few hundred miles away from him, from him

Breathe

What if he dies? He's a really old guy
He might die in the middle of the night because he is so old

Because he is so old

I have some concerns because of
I have some concerns because of

His oldness

He's older than dirt, and I must conclude
He'll die before me - that is not fun, dude
I'm guaranteed to be just a widow
But I won't throw this relationship out the window

I want to be assured that he will not die
I know it is absurd, but I think I'll cry

If I cannot have him close to me
When he dies, my tears will fill the sea

So, I will stay close to him just to hear him breathe

Breathe

2022 is a Bad Year for Music

2022 is a Bad Year for Music

Okay, yeah, I didn't want the sun to set on the crappy vocal performance in the last song without following it up with another song, whose vocal performance, far from being perfect, isn't has horrifically awful as the last one was.

Sleep Deprivation

Sleep Deprivation

Okay, I'm really not happy at all with the vocal performance on this one, and I'm not sure about the song, itself. Sleep deprivation, apparently, is really bad for one's singing voice. I guess that's why this song sucks so much - all that sleep deprivation made my voice sound like crap and poop and pee.

Just to Hear You Breathe

 

Just to Hear You Breathe

Just to hear you breathe alternative mix

Just to hear you breath 4th mix

This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album. It's actually based on a song that I attempted to write while in that fucked up relationship. See, it was a long distance relationship and the boyfriend told me that it'll be wonderful to be together because when you wake up and hear your partner breathing next to you, it's a wonderful thing cuz you know they're alright. I never recorded the song this was based on cuz it wasn't very good. I'm not sure how much this sounds like that song cuz I'm going from memory.

The lyrics are:

I'm far away from you – I'm far away from you

I wish we lived in the same area

But you're far away from me, now

I want to be close to you, just to hear you breathe

Brea – e e e e eathe, brea – e e eathe
Brea – e e e e eathe, brea – e e eathe

I wish that you could fall asleep next to me
And I would be all reassured by the

Fact that I can have you next to me
Maybe some day you'll be close to me – me

I want to be close to you, just to hear you breathe

Brea – e e e e eathe, brea – e e eathe
Brea – e e e e eathe, brea – e e eathe

He is amazing – he is a prince, man
And if he stays with me, that's great, since I'm a fan
Of his benevolence and his wisdom
But he is far away and I miss him
Yes, it's a long distance relation-
Ship, and it is causing frustration
In me, because I want to hear him
Breathing next to me after the lights are dim

Brea – e e e e eathe, brea – e e eathe
Brea – e e e e eathe, brea – e e eathe

Sadder Than Death

Sadder Than Death

I went to Los Angeles and Pasadena and South Pasadena this week to tie up some loose ends from when I moved from there. Geez, man, it felt like no time had passed, even though I hadn't been there in 2 months. Driving around there, I felt like I could just go home to my old apartment and hang out there with my cats. Dang, man, I'm sad. I'm sadder than death cuz I miss that place so bad. But the friend I stayed with down there said I can come on down any time, so that's good. At least I can tool around in my old stomping grounds every few months or so.

The picture is a picture I took of a picture I took of Pasadena City Hall. Google very kindly offered to make a canvas print for me, and I said, yes.

 

30 Minutes Catcauphony with Guitar

 

Damn, my typepad account seems to have gone toes up, and I can't play any of the music I uploaded onto it on this site. That includes my 30 minutes catcauphony which I've been using with my Bose Quiet Comfort earbuds to block out the screaming kids next door to me. So, I'm putting it on my Podomatic platform thingy, so I can play it. Damn you, typepad, damn you! In any event, feel free to download this 30 minute stretch of cat noise if you wanna block out the sound of screaming kids. Again, it seems to work best with Bose Quiet Comfort earbuds.

And I Think I'll Give It A Try, Anyway

 

And I Think I'll Give It A Try Anyway

 Here's the next song in the fucked up relationship album. This is the chopped up version of the previous song, where the main character is expressing stuff she doesn't want the dude in the relationship to hear. This is the song where she finds out he doesn't smoke pot.

I had a just a tiny misgiving

Is he a credible person? I don't know if he is

He seems too perfect - how can this be?
But it seems like he's perfect for me
Unfortunately, he don't smoke pot
But even so, I like him a lot

He might not be as fun as my last boyfriend

I think I will go with the flow
Cuz he might be fun - you never know
He's older than dirt, but that don't mean
That he's got stodginess in his genes

And I think I'll give it a try anyway

Here's the little player thingy that goes at the bottom, in case the top one ain't your cup o' tea:

It's Just the Color of the Ground

 

It's Just The Color Of The Ground

This is a demo of a hook that came from a dream; I think I know what this song's gonna eventually be about...stay tuned!