Relationship with a sinking ship mix 2
The students' states of morale have gotten so low, because they now know that a degree from their dumb, famous school won't get them anywhere. As a result, they start to feel as if they are sinking ships. In a sense, they're turning into sinking ships because they're in favor of drinking lots and lots of beer to cope with their poopy feelings about the upcoming graduation. I mean, drinking beer ain't a bad thing, per se, but there's a chance they might be overdoing it to the point that they're making themselves into sinking ships.
But it's also possible that they're just fine and they only just feel like sinking ships. Like, maybe they just feel guilty about all that beer they're drinking, but they're really not all that sinking-ship-ish. (See below if you're unfamiliar with this project.)
The part about a stuffed porcupine came from a dream. It's only just recently that I started getting raps from dreams (but have been getting other types of music from dreams for quite some time).
Here's last week's song, if you turn it around backwards:
The lyrics are:
Keep you in
the clear, so you’re running out of time
Breathing
bitter fear in the sun that lost its shine
My
relationship to the sinking ship
I will stay
with it, with a drinking fit
I got inside
a car with a stuffed porcupine
It’s a sign
that I’m running out of time
I’m feeling
pain, my eyes are singing rain
The truth of
it, don’tcha see
Is meant to
set us free
On the day
graduation’s here,
there’s no
celebration, but we’ll race to find a beer
And we pray
in the wasting fear,
but no jobs
are waiting for us and the time is near
We feel
stupid in the rain from eyes that sing their pain in tears,
we feel dumb
let’s go get some beers
Drinking
heavily today makes our minds go away oh dear,
we feel
dumb, graduation’s near
drinking
bitter beer at the end of frozen time / sinking in the fear that I sent the
ghost a sign
My
relationship with the capsized ship / I will stay with it, and the captain’s
shit
One
day, I started writing a song about a fucked up school. Then, a few days later,
that lawsuit came out, involving those pervy professors in the Dartmouth
Department of Psychological and Brain Sciences. I was all, oh, my stars!!!
That’s where I got my Ph.D.! Then
I finished writing the song about a week later. I thought it was just a song
about how the school system fucks up kids, but after I finished writing and
recording it, I realized parts of it were about my experiences in that poopy
psych department (the unconscious mind works in mysterious ways). In any event,
I decided to write an album about a fucked up school in order to process my
experiences of having been in that department and how the culture there
impacted me. This album ain’t necessarily about Dartmouth, per se. It’s more of a weird,
inner exploration where I’m, like, having a fucked up dialogue with my
unconscious about my experiences at Dartmouth. Jung used to call that kind of
stuff “active imagination.” So far, this album follows the story of a girl,
whose guardian angels try to protect her, but often can't find her. The angels
at some point decide that they have to protect the girl from those nasty
teachers and start to plot against them. But then they realize they don’t want
to actually harm the teachers, so they, instead, make the teachers’ brains into
nature brains ™, which are basically brains that hear communications coming
from nature spirits. The angels do this because they think it’ll give those
teachers more empathy, and will, in turn, be nice to the students. After the teachers receive those nature
brains, they go crazy because a mountain starts speaking to them, and the
numinosity of that experience is too much for them to handle. In the meantime, the girl and her friend are getting more and more nervous about graduation approaching and not having jobs; so they turn to beer to help them cope with their anxiety.
