I'm Always Messing Up Again

MESSNGUP

This song is about the girl berating herself for messing up on things. She got a bad grade on a test. The angels, who are the low, grandpa voices in the song, are wishing they could communicate with her so they could reassure her and tell her she's alright. (See below if you're new to this project).

Weird messing up

This is last week's song if you play it backwards.

The lyrics are:

It makes me sad again/ I’m always messing again

I did bad on the test again / I’m always messing up again

We wish we could tell her that it will be alright

Singing songs of darkness in the middle of the night

One day, I started writing a song about a fucked up school. Then, a few days later, that lawsuit came out, involving those pervy professors in the Dartmouth Department of Psychological and Brain Sciences. I was all, oh, my stars!!! That’s where I got my Ph.D.! Then I finished writing the song about a week later. I thought it was just a song about how the school system fucks up kids, but after I finished writing and recording it, I realized parts of it were about my experiences in that poopy psych department (the unconscious mind works in mysterious ways). In any event, I decided to write an album about a fucked up school in order to process my experiences of having been in that department and how the culture there impacted me. This album ain’t necessarily about Dartmouth, per se. It’s more of a weird, inner exploration where I’m, like, having a fucked up dialogue with my unconscious about my experiences at Dartmouth. Jung used to call that kind of stuff “active imagination.” So far, this album follows the story of a girl, whose guardian angels try to protect her, but often can't find her. The angels at some point decide that they have to protect the girl from those nasty teachers and start to plot against them. But then they realize they don’t want to actually harm the teachers, so they, instead, make the teachers’ brains into nature brains ™, which are basically brains that hear communications coming from nature spirits. The angels do this because they think it’ll give those teachers more empathy, and will, in turn, be nice to the students.