Saturday, April 29, 2023

Sea of Mistakes

This is a song about a girl who's made many, many, many mistakes in her life; it's a rap song that features banjo and cat.

The lyrics are:

I'm drowning in the Sea of Mistakes

A bird on her shoulder told her about the stupid things she's done
She's fumbled, and stumbled, and bumbled, and tumbled
Down and down and down and down to the bottom of the sea of mistakes
Her mind's burning and churning: It's a stern thing, now that she's learning
She should have turned left, but she turned right
She feels stupid now that she's seen the light
She's beating up on herself with all her might
No matter what she does, she can't make it right
Her life is the bones from the shipwreck; she feels all alone; no hands are on deck
There's nothing that she can do but say, "oh, heck"
And the bird on her shoulder gives her a peck

I'm drowning in the Sea of Mistakes

She moved when she should have stayed put
She tripped over her own stupid foot
She went to the wrong damn school
And now she feels like an old old fool
The bottom of the sea of mistakes
Is littered with bones of men she's dated
People might say it is just fate
But she knows that she picks the wrong mates
Her life is a Choose Your Own Adventure book, I must say
And it is clear that she is always going the wrong way
Turn to page 300 for the wrong turn that you just took
It's happened way too many times for it to be a fluke

I'm drowning in the Sea of Mistakes

And you may wonder if there is buried treasure underneath
The shipwreck, but it is just a stupid, dumb funeral wreath
For a life that never was what she wanted - that's because
She keeps on making mistakes, and she'll die until she breaks
Do not go fishing in this land
You might end up with something not grand
You might reel in the bones of mistakes and
You should have left them buried in the sand
If they get on your fishing hook
Just throw them away, and never look...
...Back - it is the bones of wrong turns that she took 
Her bad decisions were earthquakes that shook

I'm drowning
I'm drowning in the Sea of Mistakes

Friday, April 28, 2023

Through My Parents' Eyes

Through My Parents' Eyes

This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album. There's nothing like seeing the fucked upness of your own life through someone else's eyes (in this case, it's through the narrator's parents' eyes). When you see someone else seeing how fucked up your life is, it's harder to stay in denial about the fucked upness of said life. 

The lyrics are:

I saw him through my parents' eyes

There was something freaky - sinister and creepy

I saw him through my parents' eyes

Something's wrong with this man - he no longer looks grand

I don't think he's right in the head

I have new perspective - I should be selective
In my childhood bedroom, I got extra headroom
I used to be happy - now I'm feeling crappy
Why did I grow up to being ever stuck to

A man who's not right in the head?

See, being at the house where I grew up
Gave me perspective - I almost threw up
This man is so scary, and he does not care for me
And I cannot marry him out of some charity
I used to be a happy, carefree kid
Now I am sad, and I have to get rid
Of the man who makes me so unhappy
Being here makes me realize how much he is crappy

I saw him through my parents' eyes - yes I did, yes I did

It's hard to be in denial with a smile
When I'm seeing this guy, looking through my parents' eyes

It's a Miracle

It's a Miracle



It's a Miracle beefed up

 

This is a song about how I caught covid and stuff. It's my first time ever. There's a play on words cuz I'm playing around with "corona" virus and the sun's "corona" and all that. I'll insert the other little player thing maybe tomorrow or something. Yeah. Yeah, try to imagine it with a low pitched voiced man's voice singing it, cuz that's how I imagine it and stuff. The beefed up mix is a little more punchy, vocals-wise.

Okay I added the little player thingy:

Friday, April 21, 2023

I Wanna Get Stoned

 

I Wanna Get Stoned Until I'm Silly

 This is a song about wanting to get stoned. I think that's what I might just do.

Just Plain Stealing


 This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album. Apparently, the girl breaks up with the guy. But, stay tuned...it ain't over yet!

The lyrics are:

It's still beating, it's still beating
I want to keep your heart, but it's just plain stealing
I want to keep your heart, but it's just plain stealing

I wish I could keep you, dude-man
But things are not looking too grand
And my heart tells me now

I wish we could have made it work
Because you are not a big jerk
But it don't work somehow

It's still beating, it's still beating
I want to keep your heart, but it's just plain stealing
I want to keep your heart, but it's just plain stealing

You are a good guy, and I wish I could stay
But my heart sez this won't fly - I have to go away
I hope you don't think that this is personal
It's just that this relationship's cursed and all
I wish that I could stay, but I have to go
Cuz my heart says no way, the answer is, "no"
My heart's breaking, and it's aching, I don't know why, and I cry
But I have to go to somewhere, where you're not
This ain't the twist I wanted in this plot

You're not too bad
But my heart's telling me
And it is sad
But this ain't meant to be

It's still beating, it's still beating
I want to keep your heart, but it's just plain stealing
I want to keep your heart, but it's just plain stealing
I want to keep your heart, but it's just plain stealing
I want to keep your heart, but it's just plain stealing

Sunday, April 16, 2023

Sand Got Into My Eyes


Sand Got Into My Eyes

 Here's a little ditty I cranked out after I got done working on the weekend. I'm never gonna work on the weekend again for as long as I live, so Help Me God and Jesus and all that. That song was supposed to be a cool thing and all metaphorical and stuff, where sand getting in one's eyes and makin' them water was a metaphor for emotional problems and stuff that make you cry and sometimes blind you to reality as it really is. But, alas, I was too tired time crunched to make this song into something that cool. Bleh.


Friday, April 14, 2023

Just Plain Stealin' Introduction

 


Just Plain Stealing Intro

Here's the introduction to the next song in the fucked up relationship album. 

Friday, April 7, 2023

They Are Not Happy For Us


They Are Not Happy For Us

 This is the next song in the fucked up relationship album. Me and the boyfriend-from-Hell announce to my parents we're engaged. They're not particularly happy about it.

The lyrics are:

They are not happy for us

It was not a note of congratulations they looked real spooked
And I could tell my parents weren't thrilled that I'm marrying this kook
And I guess I shouldn't be too surprised becaue he got mean right
In front of them, you see, he yelled at me and caused a big scene; why.....

Did he do that? Did he do that?

My parents aren't happy; my parents aren't happy

I think they saw me being afraid
Of this guy I thought was my soul mate
And they saw him being a little mean
To me; maybe, they think he is a fiend
My boyfriend is a little scary
My parents think he doesn't care for me
They might be right about that because he
Is not nice to me - they can plainly see

They are not happy for us 

Thursday, April 6, 2023

All Day Long Panic Attack

 

All Day Long Panic Attack

 That was the kind of day I had - a day of all day long panic and all that. It was a day on the tail end of a week of not sleeping, so my voice is crap, and I had to pretend to be a male country western singer to squeak out the vocals. This song might have potential...I might re-record it one day, when my voice is better. 

The lyrics are:



I'm having an all day long panic attack
I cannot think of words; my thoughts fly off like birds
I'm having an all day long panic attack
My head's flying away; calmness is what I crave

I don't know if I'll get through this thing
My ears buzz like bees and they sting

Wildness is what I crave
Every single Goddamn day

And I'm ever losing my grip on reality
I'm taking a trip into Nightmare Yucky Bad City

I'm having an all day long panic attack
I think, I must confess, I am feeling stressed
By the way, I'm a mess - today's not the best
I'm having an all day long panic attack
I think I am concerned, and my feelings burn
My day took a bad turn, and my stomach churns

I don't think I'll get through this thing
My thoughts stab like needles that sting

Wildness is what I crave 
Every single blessed day

And I'm ever losing my grip on reality
And I'm ever losing my grip on reality